Looking at possible internships for next summer. Some are research, some are surgery, some are cancer, and even a random cardiology one in Miami.
So the places I'm looking at are:
Houston- MD Anderson, UTH, Baylor, UTMB, and UTSW
Seattle (Washington) at the Hutchinson Cancer center I believe. Thats what Maygen was doing this summer
UPenn premed enrichment program
Washington DC with NIH
Another thing thats like SMDEP but for research (nothing in texas) multiple sites nation wide.
I even found a thing that's like teaching highschool kids that are at some program at JOHNS HOPKINS!!!!!! aka the number 1 medical school in the western hemisphere. possibly the world.
Theres more at other places but do you guys have any specific suggestions? or any recommendations based on the data above?
All of them pay me at least 1000 for times that are from 6-12 weeks. I've seen some with as much as 10,ooo for 12 weeks. But most are about 25oo collectively. But i'd like to stay in texas but i'm going to apply everywhere (kind of like medical school lol) but yah if anyone is premed and is looking for some stuff to do this summer, let me know. I've got about 45 places I'm looking at. I"m probably only going to apply to 3-4. So yah i'll let you guys know what I decide on and some time in march or april I'll let you know who decides on me =]
Wish me luck, well in about 3-4 months from now lol
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Moreover
My siblings are assholes. The new mac came out yesterday and I was checking my email the one time we are all home watching TV like a loving family and all. And I show them the email and low and behold, all three of the fuckers just bought it. On my mackbook. While it was in my lap. But that's okay. Give me 7 years, I'll be richer than the 3 of them combined. I'll get 10 of every new thing Apple comes out with and I'll go give it to someone who's too old to know what to do with it... asshole... i just watched 3 people buy 3 different macs. 27 inches.... and they'll come to this address so i'll see them right before i go to school.... fags... just wait.
Thats all I have for now... they better give me the free itouches that come with it...
Thats all I have for now... they better give me the free itouches that come with it...
What's annoyingly stupid?
I'm not speaking from my point of view as gary but I'm just speaking from a persons point of view. someone that can easily follow logic.
So if you were in a relationship for like 10 years and they were 10 solid years, filled with the good and the bad and the whole 9 yard. Do you really think that me sending your significant other to like a maximum security federal prison with no visitation for 10 weeks would affect the relationship? I mean yah it'll be harder not talking to them for 10 weeks and all, but would you leave the person you've been with for 10 years because you couldn't talk to them for 10 weeks?
Let's say that I did that to you. And I really think this will end your relationship (because I hate him/her). Do you think you'd think the situation is so retarded that it annoys you?
Well "someone I know" is in that situation and it's not even a big deal to "them". It's been 10 yrs, 10 weeks is nothing. But the fact that people are so misguided in thinking that it's so significant is soooooo annoying. Thats like me fining out where you're applying for jobs and sending the hiring committees anonymous letters with absolutely no credibility. Like yo will still get the job but wouldn't the fact that I took the time out of my life to do that just annoy you?
These people.... Like I'm so annoyed that I can't even be mad, because I'm too busy being annoyed.... damn... people people people. This is how you know you'll never have to worry about anything significant coming from them, when they do desperate shit like that. I'm wowwed right now. Idiots will be idiots. And don't go jumping to conclusions, about who you think it may be or if you think its you. But if you do this (though I may not be addressing you specifically) you're pathetic. If you're going to try stopping a marriage you're going to need something a little bit more substantial. I'm just saying. Or you could sit back and leave it alone and let the god you believe in deal with it. That's what I do, and I must say, aside from academics, I live a pretty stress free life, and a successful stress free life at that.
If people would just realize their limits, they would save so much time and effort. oh shit, that's a point I made about my "make yourself a success " blog. Just goes to show the real life application lol.
I'm that good.
Oh and I went to a thing with some kids from my internship and they kept harassing me about my "man purse" and it's a map bag. so I'm going to post a blog later about why I carry it and whats in it. Some people will be amazed, some people will be shocked, and some people will be scared. Oh and I think alot of people will envy it or be jealous, but for the wrong reasons....
whatever. I'll post that later.
-Gary Infinity
So if you were in a relationship for like 10 years and they were 10 solid years, filled with the good and the bad and the whole 9 yard. Do you really think that me sending your significant other to like a maximum security federal prison with no visitation for 10 weeks would affect the relationship? I mean yah it'll be harder not talking to them for 10 weeks and all, but would you leave the person you've been with for 10 years because you couldn't talk to them for 10 weeks?
Let's say that I did that to you. And I really think this will end your relationship (because I hate him/her). Do you think you'd think the situation is so retarded that it annoys you?
Well "someone I know" is in that situation and it's not even a big deal to "them". It's been 10 yrs, 10 weeks is nothing. But the fact that people are so misguided in thinking that it's so significant is soooooo annoying. Thats like me fining out where you're applying for jobs and sending the hiring committees anonymous letters with absolutely no credibility. Like yo will still get the job but wouldn't the fact that I took the time out of my life to do that just annoy you?
These people.... Like I'm so annoyed that I can't even be mad, because I'm too busy being annoyed.... damn... people people people. This is how you know you'll never have to worry about anything significant coming from them, when they do desperate shit like that. I'm wowwed right now. Idiots will be idiots. And don't go jumping to conclusions, about who you think it may be or if you think its you. But if you do this (though I may not be addressing you specifically) you're pathetic. If you're going to try stopping a marriage you're going to need something a little bit more substantial. I'm just saying. Or you could sit back and leave it alone and let the god you believe in deal with it. That's what I do, and I must say, aside from academics, I live a pretty stress free life, and a successful stress free life at that.
If people would just realize their limits, they would save so much time and effort. oh shit, that's a point I made about my "make yourself a success " blog. Just goes to show the real life application lol.
I'm that good.
Oh and I went to a thing with some kids from my internship and they kept harassing me about my "man purse" and it's a map bag. so I'm going to post a blog later about why I carry it and whats in it. Some people will be amazed, some people will be shocked, and some people will be scared. Oh and I think alot of people will envy it or be jealous, but for the wrong reasons....
whatever. I'll post that later.
-Gary Infinity
Monday, July 26, 2010
So I'm going to debut my other blog now. Be patient
So I'm only on my second post and for those of you who are on my email list you guys have known about it for a while. Sorry about the delays lol I've been busy with SMDEP and dealing with personal problems and things like that but now I have every intention of getting back into the swing of things.
But for those of you who have yet to see this it's a blog about me chasing the American dream and tips to help people chase there's. I mean it may help you it may not but it's generally geared to people just getting out of high school and into college. People without a clue of what they want to do or what it takes to do what they want to do. Stuff like that. And it basically came about thanks to SMDEP because alot of my fellow scholars saw another blog that i manage and it's about where i'm at in life like what i want to do and what steps i've taken (i'm going to end that one and just pick up with this one). So to help them and other people like them I'm doing this. I may help you, hel I may even help myself!
But its definitely no where near where I want it to be right now. The design is temporary until I find something better that I like. And like I said I'm only on my 2nd post. But hopefully I can get some adsense on it soon and a donate button as well from paypal. I"m not expecting many donations but everything helps. And most of them won't even benefit me directly. They will more than likely go into my business idea and the money for Hanan's school a year or 2 from now. So know that it helps and it's not going to be wasted.
Without further a due, I hope you all enjoy my blog entitled: Making Yourself a Success. I will allow comments and subscribers on it so feel free to participate!
http://selfsucceeding.blogspot.com/
Thanks for the past the present and the future
- Gary Infinity
But for those of you who have yet to see this it's a blog about me chasing the American dream and tips to help people chase there's. I mean it may help you it may not but it's generally geared to people just getting out of high school and into college. People without a clue of what they want to do or what it takes to do what they want to do. Stuff like that. And it basically came about thanks to SMDEP because alot of my fellow scholars saw another blog that i manage and it's about where i'm at in life like what i want to do and what steps i've taken (i'm going to end that one and just pick up with this one). So to help them and other people like them I'm doing this. I may help you, hel I may even help myself!
But its definitely no where near where I want it to be right now. The design is temporary until I find something better that I like. And like I said I'm only on my 2nd post. But hopefully I can get some adsense on it soon and a donate button as well from paypal. I"m not expecting many donations but everything helps. And most of them won't even benefit me directly. They will more than likely go into my business idea and the money for Hanan's school a year or 2 from now. So know that it helps and it's not going to be wasted.
Without further a due, I hope you all enjoy my blog entitled: Making Yourself a Success. I will allow comments and subscribers on it so feel free to participate!
http://selfsucceeding.blogspot.com/
Thanks for the past the present and the future
- Gary Infinity
"Let's go hang out at a park"... I hate being outside in Texas!
.5 of my genome, right there
trying to get him to loan me a million for my business idea
ME: "Dad you're like my sunglasses and I'm like my eyes and the sun is like my gas bills. Sometimes the sun is to bright for my eyes therefore I need sunglasses. With that being said, I want to go to San Antonio with Leslie."
DAD: "and?"
ME: "Dad, be my sunglasses!!"
DAD: "but you're already wearing sunglasses" (with a little smartass grin on his face)
But I'll do my kids the same way, not even going to lie lol
Cant even tell I have a jawbreaker in my mouth. I'm that good.
There's a story that I'm not going to tell lol
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Dedicated to...
Anyone who embraces change. Anyone who sacrifices in the name of change. Without change you can't grow. With out change, we can't grow as a nation, as a people, as a race, as a family, or as a religion. Pardon me, I'm just in a mood if you will. But seriously shout out to people who accept change and try new things voluntarily. You all are the shit in my eyes. Idk what kind of mood I'm in but I'm making changes, some voluntarily and some involuntarily. But regardless it's hard, but I'll be stronger and better because of it.
I promised my mom I would never change, and I'm not changing but I am making changes. I'll always be me, I'm Margery's grandson. The weight of my family seems to be on my shoulders. I don't understand why it's me, I'm not the oldest child. I'm not the oldest male. I'm not the best speaker, I'm not the smartest, I'm not the most successful; though I have fair standings in them all. But I'm not timid, I intend to see us through this and make you all proud of what we stand for. Together we stand divided we fall. No one can do it alone, we're in this together, until the end. I know some of us haven't been on the best terms but we're a family. Blood, marriage, it's all the same. If you're happy I'm happy and if not let me know and we'll get it taken care of together. Thats what family does. I completely endorse everyone's decisions in life from now on as long as you do what makes you happy. Life is too short, or so I've been told.
And by no means am I trying to sound like I'm stronger than anyone else. What's happened has happened. Learn from it and develop an appreciation for what you have had, do have, and will have. Take a minute to collect yourselves with the idea that: when you stop, time leaves you behind. We have to keep it moving.
Bare with me. With that being said, fuck everyone who doesn't embrace or hides from change. Especially if you choose not to accept it. You won't ever be shit if you don't change. And that goes to anyone, it's nothing personal. Change is the catalyst for production. If no change is made, there is no way to progress in any context except ignorance. If ignorance is your thing then fuck you, the world would be a better place if you'd stop breathing. Seriously. Let's all try making a positive progressive change. Make the world a better place in every context.
When the going gets tough, the tough go to work; watch me work
- Gary Infinity, family pride
I promised my mom I would never change, and I'm not changing but I am making changes. I'll always be me, I'm Margery's grandson. The weight of my family seems to be on my shoulders. I don't understand why it's me, I'm not the oldest child. I'm not the oldest male. I'm not the best speaker, I'm not the smartest, I'm not the most successful; though I have fair standings in them all. But I'm not timid, I intend to see us through this and make you all proud of what we stand for. Together we stand divided we fall. No one can do it alone, we're in this together, until the end. I know some of us haven't been on the best terms but we're a family. Blood, marriage, it's all the same. If you're happy I'm happy and if not let me know and we'll get it taken care of together. Thats what family does. I completely endorse everyone's decisions in life from now on as long as you do what makes you happy. Life is too short, or so I've been told.
And by no means am I trying to sound like I'm stronger than anyone else. What's happened has happened. Learn from it and develop an appreciation for what you have had, do have, and will have. Take a minute to collect yourselves with the idea that: when you stop, time leaves you behind. We have to keep it moving.
Bare with me. With that being said, fuck everyone who doesn't embrace or hides from change. Especially if you choose not to accept it. You won't ever be shit if you don't change. And that goes to anyone, it's nothing personal. Change is the catalyst for production. If no change is made, there is no way to progress in any context except ignorance. If ignorance is your thing then fuck you, the world would be a better place if you'd stop breathing. Seriously. Let's all try making a positive progressive change. Make the world a better place in every context.
When the going gets tough, the tough go to work; watch me work
- Gary Infinity, family pride
Master plan in progress
You don't even understand. I should really make a career in business. And people tell me that all the time. But medicine is more important to me and i'll do business on the side. But basically all I have been advised to say is that I have promising visions for future businesses. But seriously I'm a beast. I'm about to go about 2 million in debt but in 4 years I'll be projected to have 7 million. And it's not like it stops in 4 years. It's almost as brilliant as mcdonalds. but it has nothing to do with food or retail or whatever mcdonalds is. But it's going to be just as big. I just need to find a few partners. I got a guy at Morehouse in and I'm going over some litigation with a guy at UPenn.
Prepare to be amazed. This is like the iphone. But has nothing to do with Technology lol.
just wait. give it 5 years, i think we're going to take it to india first and see how it goes. but it's going to take about a year or 2 just to design. but whatever. this is what happens when geniuses get bored. Mk well i'll leave it up to your imagination.
the only downer is the 2 mil debt. half of which i don't have but my dad may invest in me lol lets hope.
Oh and when thats done, i'm writing a book. actually I'll be getting ready for my MCAT so maybe the summer of 2014 after 1st yr of med school.
Speaking of MCAT, funny story.
So in Seattle me and my friend went to a psychic just to see if he was legit. This kid tells me "you're going to get married in april 2012" and I was like "this guy's wrong, I have my boards(mcat) in june!" then he goes "hmmm the spirits are telling me the summer of 2015" and i was like "wow you're wrong 2 times in a row, I have Step1(usmle1=united states medical licensing examination part 1) then!" then he goes "what about 2017" and i was like "don't go up in 2's! something important happens every 2 yrs until 2021!" I have step2 in 2017 which will be a big deal in determining 1) if i become an MD 2)where I match for residency and 3)it gives you a right to feel like you're going to be a renowned physician if you do well lol
but I'm pretty sure I'll get married in 2013 if not before. but not in 2012 because of i have boards. 2015 pffffftttt yah right. I'm going to want to kill myself in 2015! even more so in 2017. and i thing the urge increases gradually until 2021 lol possible 2022 depending if i decide to do the family internal combo... but whatever
But I'm going to go to bed now. Hanan comes home in about a day =]
probably won't get to see her on that day, but I will soon enough!
8 weeks is a long time.
But okay, I'm out.
Prepare to be amazed. This is like the iphone. But has nothing to do with Technology lol.
just wait. give it 5 years, i think we're going to take it to india first and see how it goes. but it's going to take about a year or 2 just to design. but whatever. this is what happens when geniuses get bored. Mk well i'll leave it up to your imagination.
the only downer is the 2 mil debt. half of which i don't have but my dad may invest in me lol lets hope.
Oh and when thats done, i'm writing a book. actually I'll be getting ready for my MCAT so maybe the summer of 2014 after 1st yr of med school.
Speaking of MCAT, funny story.
So in Seattle me and my friend went to a psychic just to see if he was legit. This kid tells me "you're going to get married in april 2012" and I was like "this guy's wrong, I have my boards(mcat) in june!" then he goes "hmmm the spirits are telling me the summer of 2015" and i was like "wow you're wrong 2 times in a row, I have Step1(usmle1=united states medical licensing examination part 1) then!" then he goes "what about 2017" and i was like "don't go up in 2's! something important happens every 2 yrs until 2021!" I have step2 in 2017 which will be a big deal in determining 1) if i become an MD 2)where I match for residency and 3)it gives you a right to feel like you're going to be a renowned physician if you do well lol
but I'm pretty sure I'll get married in 2013 if not before. but not in 2012 because of i have boards. 2015 pffffftttt yah right. I'm going to want to kill myself in 2015! even more so in 2017. and i thing the urge increases gradually until 2021 lol possible 2022 depending if i decide to do the family internal combo... but whatever
But I'm going to go to bed now. Hanan comes home in about a day =]
probably won't get to see her on that day, but I will soon enough!
8 weeks is a long time.
But okay, I'm out.
Friday, July 23, 2010
So I went on a vacation
Just got back from seattle hanging out with a good friend of mine who has parents in the government as well. Nothing too special happened, just a bunch of things that normal people wouldn't appreciate like covert opps against security, only to get caught at the mall lol. What else? just a bunch of tourism for the sake of me... but it was really nice to see her. I haven't seen her for about 3 months. And I mean we text or chat or talk everyday but it's not the same. But we just hung out, talked about whats going on with our lives or whats been going on with them. She's probably the first person that I've personally told about my dog. But she's applying to UTH and Baylor and I told her that baylor was at the top of my list so we agreed that if she gets in we both have to go to baylor lol =] and I don't think she'll have a problem at all, she's smarter than I am (at least on paper), and her and my sister are good friends. But her interview is in september and my sister already offered an interview but i don't think she'll be doing the interviewing. But I'm almost certain she'll get in. And then that will constitute me going to Baylor. But I'm still applying to some out of state places and even the carribean just in case.
oh story time!
So we were watching boston med and before boston med came on we had a conversation about reshma shetty(who i'm meeting on my birthday =]) and I think that pretty much every brown girl and most arab girls are beautiful like almost as ppretty as I think Hanan is. As long as they're normal, not ghetto or that emo shit lol but I think Reshma Shetty is by far the prettiest brownie I have ever seen. And most brownies completely disagree with me... and I just don't understand. But maybe she's not a pretty brown woman but she is one fine regular woman lol. but on boston med there was a brown girl and i was on the phone with natasha(a brown girl who thinks reshma isn't amazing) and maygen was with us and natasha was watching boston med too and I was like look at that girl she's brown but she's not reshma pretty, pretty, but reshma would kill her. So we had a debate about it and they show the name of the person like full name. So maygen who is in like full creeper mode, suggests we look at her facebook lol so we find her on facebook and I was just amazed! like i didn't see any pics but I saw info and her friends and it was amazing. She went to MIT for undergrad (speaks volumes) Harvard Med (meh, kind of a step down from MIT) the John hopkins for residency!!!!! omfg are you kidding me john hopkins!!!! I was amazed guys.... and then her network is just as impresive. she had less than 400 friends but like 350 of them are from harvard or harvard med. I saw one person from Rice. A few people from places like cornell, upenn, Columbia, Dartmouth. And I saw 4 people from Stanford. Then I randomly saw a dude from south Alabama lmao. Oh and I saw 3 people from Emory and like 1-2 from Vanderbilt. Oh and a few from tufts. But damn imagine how productive her immediate network is! like everyone she knows is somebody. I wish my immediate network was that impressive. All I have is my family, and their networks are impressive but they aren't mine. Thanks dad for giving me such a substantial incentive to go to a state school... fuck. If I could have went to Dartmouth or UPenn I'd have a way better network. but I mean it's not like I don't know people lol i just wish they were my people and not my brother's or my dads or something like that... Damn
But anyway it was a lot of fun to just be with someone who understands what my life is like and its nice being with someone who's life I can relate to. It was a good week. But now it's back to this place or whatever. this will be my lst weekend on this side of Houston then back to ClearLake until school starts. Got a lot of meetings to sit through and a lot of things to get done so yah I'm back and the updates should be back to relatively normal.
Stay tuned
- Gary Infinity
oh story time!
So we were watching boston med and before boston med came on we had a conversation about reshma shetty(who i'm meeting on my birthday =]) and I think that pretty much every brown girl and most arab girls are beautiful like almost as ppretty as I think Hanan is. As long as they're normal, not ghetto or that emo shit lol but I think Reshma Shetty is by far the prettiest brownie I have ever seen. And most brownies completely disagree with me... and I just don't understand. But maybe she's not a pretty brown woman but she is one fine regular woman lol. but on boston med there was a brown girl and i was on the phone with natasha(a brown girl who thinks reshma isn't amazing) and maygen was with us and natasha was watching boston med too and I was like look at that girl she's brown but she's not reshma pretty, pretty, but reshma would kill her. So we had a debate about it and they show the name of the person like full name. So maygen who is in like full creeper mode, suggests we look at her facebook lol so we find her on facebook and I was just amazed! like i didn't see any pics but I saw info and her friends and it was amazing. She went to MIT for undergrad (speaks volumes) Harvard Med (meh, kind of a step down from MIT) the John hopkins for residency!!!!! omfg are you kidding me john hopkins!!!! I was amazed guys.... and then her network is just as impresive. she had less than 400 friends but like 350 of them are from harvard or harvard med. I saw one person from Rice. A few people from places like cornell, upenn, Columbia, Dartmouth. And I saw 4 people from Stanford. Then I randomly saw a dude from south Alabama lmao. Oh and I saw 3 people from Emory and like 1-2 from Vanderbilt. Oh and a few from tufts. But damn imagine how productive her immediate network is! like everyone she knows is somebody. I wish my immediate network was that impressive. All I have is my family, and their networks are impressive but they aren't mine. Thanks dad for giving me such a substantial incentive to go to a state school... fuck. If I could have went to Dartmouth or UPenn I'd have a way better network. but I mean it's not like I don't know people lol i just wish they were my people and not my brother's or my dads or something like that... Damn
But anyway it was a lot of fun to just be with someone who understands what my life is like and its nice being with someone who's life I can relate to. It was a good week. But now it's back to this place or whatever. this will be my lst weekend on this side of Houston then back to ClearLake until school starts. Got a lot of meetings to sit through and a lot of things to get done so yah I'm back and the updates should be back to relatively normal.
Stay tuned
- Gary Infinity
Monday, July 19, 2010
Niggers
I don't like that word, nor do I like the situation, so it must be appropriate. I mean I'm not ashamed or anything because I know who I am, and at times I found it rather amusing. But it's people like this that are holding the "black community" down. I just don't understand why a pregnant girl would be fighting. I don't understand why a pretty cut dude would connect on a pregnant girl. I don't understand why it was videotaped. I don't understand why the cops took so long, and why they just stood there when they got there. And I don't understand why they wouldn't stop. And I seriously don't understand why the old lady wanted to fight a girl like she was her mother.... like what's the point?
Niggers....
I mean I've been to oakland before but my dad did double my security even got me 3 K-9s... but it didn't seem like i would have needed them, and that was like 3-4 yrs ago. But I just thought the ridiculousness of these people should be observed.
Enjoy, you'll laugh, especially when the pregnant girl takes her shirt off and is like "i'm still sexy" pahahaha she wasn't sexy with her shirt on lol and even less when it came off, i mean she's pregnant lol
And they kept saying bitch a lot, actually they kept repeating everything, like okay say something different now. change it up, switch the beat lol. I don't like that word in reference to females... i mean the word is fine when you're talking about someone mean, or someone who's like timid. but when you're talking about a woman... not cool. unless it's during sex.
but anyways, see for yourself
Niggers....
I mean I've been to oakland before but my dad did double my security even got me 3 K-9s... but it didn't seem like i would have needed them, and that was like 3-4 yrs ago. But I just thought the ridiculousness of these people should be observed.
Enjoy, you'll laugh, especially when the pregnant girl takes her shirt off and is like "i'm still sexy" pahahaha she wasn't sexy with her shirt on lol and even less when it came off, i mean she's pregnant lol
And they kept saying bitch a lot, actually they kept repeating everything, like okay say something different now. change it up, switch the beat lol. I don't like that word in reference to females... i mean the word is fine when you're talking about someone mean, or someone who's like timid. but when you're talking about a woman... not cool. unless it's during sex.
but anyways, see for yourself
From the other night
when me and my friends hung out and watched boston med and royal pains and what not
lol I forgot to take pics while it happened but i did steal a few with the first girl to arrive =]
enjoy me and andrea lol
It's fuck the world, get a child out her
My lifes a bitch but you know nothing bout her
been to hell and back, i can show you vouchers
married to the game, but she broke her vowels
thats why my bars are full of broken bottles
and my nightstands are full of open bibles
I don't go around fire expecting not to sweat
and these people know I lay em down, make your bed
and if you try to kick me while i'm down i'll break your leg
ok you want me up in a cage then i'll come out in beast mode
i got this world stuck in a safe, combination is the G code
So you can keep knocking, but you won't knock me down
no love lost. no love found.
lol I forgot to take pics while it happened but i did steal a few with the first girl to arrive =]
enjoy me and andrea lol
It's fuck the world, get a child out her
My lifes a bitch but you know nothing bout her
been to hell and back, i can show you vouchers
married to the game, but she broke her vowels
thats why my bars are full of broken bottles
and my nightstands are full of open bibles
I don't go around fire expecting not to sweat
and these people know I lay em down, make your bed
and if you try to kick me while i'm down i'll break your leg
ok you want me up in a cage then i'll come out in beast mode
i got this world stuck in a safe, combination is the G code
So you can keep knocking, but you won't knock me down
no love lost. no love found.
This is the epitome of my life.
Specifically Lil' Wayne's verse minus the part about smoking weed and doing drugs
My favorite part is when he's talking about being in a cage and he'll come out in beast mode.
then he's like my life is a bitch, but you know nothing about her
been to hell and back, i can show you vouchers
that's dope. Enjoy my life put in words. just lil waynes verse, I'm not an Eminem fan but it's whatever.
My favorite part is when he's talking about being in a cage and he'll come out in beast mode.
then he's like my life is a bitch, but you know nothing about her
been to hell and back, i can show you vouchers
that's dope. Enjoy my life put in words. just lil waynes verse, I'm not an Eminem fan but it's whatever.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Let me get this off my chest.
So I've been having a hard times dealing with the death of my dog, and I mean I knew it was coming. I've feared the day this would happen since she was like 14. and that was 5 years ago. and I mean after the 3rd year I kind of didn't consider it anymore, like I was tired of worrying and I just stopped like she was only 8 and not 17 or something. But I mean it's a big adjustment. Like I'm not even living at the house I grew up in, I'm living in a house my family owns just because I can't stand being in the house that my she used to come in when it was cold or raining. the same house I used to sneak her in every night since I was old enough to turn the door. The same house she didn't let me get near the electric outlets as a baby. She was a phenomenal dog.
But my response to this is rather dismal... But thats just how I am when things like this happens. If their is one thing everyone should know about me, though hardly anyone does, it's that I get selfish when I lose people or things close to me especially if they've been close to me my entire life. And as a result to my selfishness I start wanting more for myself, like I deserve more and I mean in a way I do. Like I'll start doubting my relationships with both friends and lovers, I'll start wanting better for myself, in both people and materials. Like I'll want a better best friend, and a better car, and a better family. And I think if my regular philosophy were different then I wouldn't feel this way. My regular philosophy is not "pick the thing (friends, classmates, cars, etc etc) thatis best for you" but it's "pick the thing that you're best for" And I mean I do it for several reasons, like I'm a relatively selfless person. My sister tells me it's that psychology suggests that it's about loyalty (like they depend on me so i don't have to worry about them standing me up, or hurting me)... but whatever. I'm just selfless. Then when shit happens it's like I get selfish and start thinking like man my friends are crappy, I deserve better. And I mean in all honesty I kind of do, but when I'm not in the middle of a crisis I'm happy with them, we have fun and whatever. But basically everything is about me as far as I'm concerned right now, and my family knows I get that way so it's somewhat not as bad as it could be. But I wish the rest of the world knew that, but because they don't my family pretty much protects the hell out of me. Like my dad doubled my security, like the mail man isn't allowed to stop at the house I'm staying in right now just for both of our safety (kind of not necessary but it's comforting), he also took away my 9mm and gave me a 22cal instead and a lower voltage taser (because I'm much more likely to actually use them due to impeded judgement). My brother doubled my legal staff which is actually needed because I've already racked up 4 lawsuits in the last 2 weeks.... Tangent, this tangent will be rather extensive. So 2 of these lawsuits are because of peoples radical religious beliefs. So the first one involves a fat white lady, oh and as expected I'm a lot more vulgar when I'm going through things like this. But this is what happened- I'm at a seafood restaurant and I'm with my family and this is the day after I found out and I'm really grumpy because I just want to be alone and I had a busy day with the internship and now they're messing up my schedule for this arbitrary dinner and its like I wasn't even there like everything was ambient to me. So the food comes and I'm not even hungry but my sisters are stupid and forced me to eat so I pick up my fork and start eating, just like a normal person would. This fat lady is looking at me and I see her looking at me but I'm not really considering the fact that she's looking at me because she's fat and just unattractive so basically she's nothing substantial enough to be worthy of my concern at the moment. Then I keep eating, and then she comes up to me and asks me if I'm a christian. And when I get the way I am like after losing someone I answer questions with questions. and most of the time it's the exact same question. So I asked her if she was a christian and she says yes and I was like "okay so why don't you go sit down, don't think you're about to have an impact on my life because I already made the mental note of how insignificant you are when you looked at me and decided to get up and come over here" and her mouth dropped like she couldn't believe what I just said and I asked her why she is still standing there and she says "well I noticed you didn't participate in the blessing of the food" and i was like "the last time I blessed my food was when I was 10, and i think it's idiotic of you to assume that I'm not a christian based on the fact that i didn't do something that most christians don't do unless it's a christian holiday. furthermore, anyone with the slightest gift of logic could realize that i'm with my family and if my family says grace and i don't then i must still be a christian because i come from and still associated with my christian family. Just because I don't say grace doesn't mean I'm any less of a christian so at this point you have 3 options you can sit yourself down, my security can help you sit down, or you can say another word so that I can personally slam your head into the table. she's suing me for threatening her because of that last part and the funny thing is that my family didn't do anything because I was that unstable. But I mean looking back on it i didn't mean it, and I wouldnt do that because I'm not a violent guy, but I honestly believe that I would have done it if her fat ass would have said one more word. The other lawsuit is about me causing emotional distress or whatever... some muslim people came to my door trying to fucking convert me or something, and this was like the day after i did the thing at dinner that i just told you about, so i'm still at my house close to brook. But I don't even know why I answered the door, like I even looked at the camera and saw that they werent anyone i knew, and i knew they werent census people because of my dad but i answer the door and they said why they were their about muhammad and islam and what it means and i was really polite for about 10 mins and then i was like "well i have something in the oven so i have to go get that, thanks for the info but i'm pretty content on Christianity" then they were like oh well we can come in and talk while you cook and I looked at them like with an eyebrow raised and was like "really? that's pathetic" and they were like okay we'll stay out here and wait. so i was like mk and i closed the door and i was just going to let them sit there and then my sister pulls in the drive way and they stop her and this is my little fucking 14 year old sister and she comes in the house telling me about it and i was like wooooooowww they're desperate. And I'm extremely protective of my girls, like anyone who a girl thats close to me both friends and family., and anyone younger than me. So I go get my dad's combat pistol, idk what caliber but it shoots straight and that's all I need, and it has a nice little tactical knife lol. so I go back to the door and I tell them to leave and they start fucking begging me too hear them out and I was like I'm going to give you until the count of 10 and i start counting and they're looking at me like i'm bluffing so i get to 7 and then I pull the gun out and then they practically shit themselves and run away. then 5 minutes later they come back but with the fucking constables lol not th police the constables! so bsically they don't know that I am who I am and I have my car in the driveway and i tell them to run my plates and when they do that they'll see who i am and i didnt open the door lol i wrote a note and posted it on the window. then they just wanted to make sure i had a license for a gun and i don't need one on private propery but i showed them my concealed handgun license and they were like but you're not 21 and i was like here let me let you talk to my dad (cops never believe me when i tell them that i can legally have a gun when im 18 or older because of what my dad does, like it's written in the law and it says something like federal agents immediate family members may conceal weapons, its like federal agents, governors, mayors, and military people, but the military people are the only one that doesnt get the immediate family privilege probably because there is a soldier in almost every family lol). So those are the 2 lawsuits, i'm facing and i think it's funny that the lady from the dinner wrote me a letter talking abot how her brother is a lawyer. so i look the dude up and first of all he's a finance lawyer, not a civil lawyer lol and second of all he isn't shit compared to my brother. No one who practices in houston is shit to someone who practices in new york. like i think that one of the worst lawyers in new your could compete with the best lawyer in houston lol but my brother isnt the worst lawyer in new york, infact i think he's in the upper class of lawyers, after all he does charge 900$/hour.... thats a ton of money.... like it cost about 20,000$ a month for his services... and he has like 60 clients at any given time... lets do math really quick for kicks (i've never calculated this before) so 20k/month/person. 60 people means he brings in about 120k a month? which is 1,440,000 a year? before takes? as an oncologist.... what i make in a year will only take him 2 months to make.... damn.... i'll bring that up at thanksgiving and see how christmas turns out for me this year lol. but basically I don't give a damn who her brother is because my brother eats people like him for desert. fucking finance lawyer. All I know is that she's fat and that's not healthy, and as a future physician i'm going to let her know that it's in her best interest to get her fat ass on a treadmill for about 100 years without any breaks... she needs to just exercise non stop for the rest of her fat ass life. I never did like fat people. But the best part to me iss that people don't realize that for every lawsuit theirs a counter suit, or at least a countersuit is possible. like just the fact that you're filing a lawsuit could be considered harassment if you know how to argue it. and i was actually harassed before any lawsuit were filed so i'm not at all worried about it. This is why you should keep your religious beliefs to yourself and be minister your beliefs by example. Maybe if they were like "hi we're muslim and god loves you" people would actually look into what islam or whatever religion is being presented is about. you can't just harass people into your beliefs or harass them with your beliefs for that matter. So if anyone ever comes up to you trying to minister to you or whatever that's a won lawsuit if the lawyer knows what they're doing. Oh and I have had a lot of run in's with this kind of stupid shit like people sending me stuff on facebook or talking about why their religion is better than mine or how much more successful the people in their religion is than mine, let me know and i'll get my brother to help you out. I mean it won't be free but it wont be 900$ either. I think if I like you enough he coulld hook you up for about 100 and hour and that would only be about 1000 a month =] and he'll let you keep 100% of the settlement. and these cases can be worth as much as 700k. Oh and another funny thing that happened with the muslim people pahahaha this lady asked me what I wanted to be and i told her a doctor and she was like thats great, more muslims are doctors than christians. and i've heard that like 2 other times prior to her saying that so I already had the statistics memorized but i pretended that I didn't and I was like "well i don't know how accurate your statistics are but i haven't run into any muslim doctors, i mean i know they exist but i'm doing an internship at the texas medical center , you know the largest medical center in the world, and I've been there for 5 weeks and I hve yet to run into a muslim doctor... or at least a doctor with a muslim name." and she was like really? and i was like "yah everyone is either black, white, asian, or indian. I mean i know that some muslims aren't arab and some arabs aren't muslim but i have yet to run into a person or even seen a person that is like definitely muslim. I'm going to assume that mot of the white and black people are Christians or atheist or jewish. and the asians are either Buddhist or Christian, and the indians are either Christian or Hindu, I mean I've seen muslim nurses and RNs and NPs and PAs... but i've seen alot more of other denominations that are those too. But maybe you're thinking of dentists because most of the muslims i have seen here are dental students or dentists and even in my internship the musims are mostly dental kids... but even if you're right about the numbers, what does that say about you? are you just an idiot that couldn't make it through the application process? is every muslim that isn't a doctor just a dumb muslim? because based on what you just said, i know alot of dumb muslims... i know alot of dumb people but since muslims have to be doctors or whatever.... almost every muslim i know is dumb. All the smart muslims are pharmacy or optometry...." then she was like well there are alot of lawyers and engineers and I was like okay just because you're a lawyer doesn't mean you're smart, i mean UH law school average gpa is a 3.2, so mathematically for every 4.0 a student has there is another student with a 2.4. a 2.0 is considered academic probation, so anyone who graduates college can be a lawyer. And engineers aren't he;d to high standards either. you don't even need graduate school, you just have to pass a test and bam, you're an engineer... but i'm sure there are more christians there as well. but i do think islam comes in a close second. But in schools that actually take some dedication like veterinary or medical school, their arent too many muslims. mostly Hindu and Christians and Buddhist. I hope that doesn't offend anyone, well it's not intended to but if it does I kind of don't care. men lie, women lie; numbers don't.
but I seriously hate it when people pull the whole success card or whatever, i don't think that has anything to do with religion as it does the individual. because frankly i know a lot of Christians are poor with crappy jobs and they're dumb. but i know a lot of muslims are just like that too. And I'm surprised no one has brought this up yet but if I weren't christian i would present the prison population and the percentage of that is made of christians and i mean it's probably about 90% but then again i would counter that with the 10 commandments. dont steal, kill and stuff like that. so i'd basically just say well they just claim Christianity but they dont practice it. And i know alot of muslims who claim islam but don't practice it. hence terrorism. hence hanan's relatives. hence the slutty girls from high school. Unless it says that it's okay to devastate nations with historical death counts. or to beat the shit out of someone for no reason. or to have sex with everyone who has a penis. oh and i know some muslim guys that are man whores too. So just because someone claims something doesn't mean they practice it, and because they dont practice it, their claim on it is invalid. but anyways...
but basically ive been doubting everything lately and when i say everything i mean everything, like my career, my future in general, who i want in my future and what roles i want people to play in it and stuff like that. I'm not taking this whole death thing well at all. my phone's pretty much off 70% of the time and whenever it is on it's only on long enough to return calls, reply to texts, and delete a few emails, then it's right back off. so if i regularly call you and i stop for a while the chances are that it's nothing personal and i'm getting ready to revamp my life so i may just stop talking to you completely, just depends on who you are. But the only people I hang out with are some kids from SMDEP and Natasha and Catherine. It's weird how they're mostly brown lol but my brown friends are the best friends, like they get where i'm coming from. Its funny how my family functions like a brown family, like everyone is successful or expected to be, only certain carreers are acceptable, you're expected to behave to a certain standard, family ties are a big deal, every month there;s a big dinner that you have to wear a suite to lol the only difference is that I can marry whoever I want and they don't have to be Egyptian, German or Irish lol. And i just realized that we're kind of a big family with mercedes and hondas and toyotas lol. But yah I like brown people, and the type of asian that doesnt talk to just asians. then i would say white then arab then black lol. actually arabs and blacks are pretty competitive for the last spot. i mean don't get me wrong i have great friends in both but generally as a population i don't like them. oh actually the kind of asian that only talks to asians, those are the last lol.
anyways
idk if i told you guys, but i'm going to get to hang out with reshma shetty the weekend before my birthday =] she's brown and english, the english makes it hot!
But yah I'm going to go hang out with some of my friends now, we're pulling an all nighter tonight at the house I'm living in now. we'll be watching some boston med and other medical shows =] oh and that's doesn't sound fun to most people but if you're pre med I bet you're jealous =] and you have every reason to be pahahahaha
So I'm out.
Peace up, A-town down
-Gary Infinity
But my response to this is rather dismal... But thats just how I am when things like this happens. If their is one thing everyone should know about me, though hardly anyone does, it's that I get selfish when I lose people or things close to me especially if they've been close to me my entire life. And as a result to my selfishness I start wanting more for myself, like I deserve more and I mean in a way I do. Like I'll start doubting my relationships with both friends and lovers, I'll start wanting better for myself, in both people and materials. Like I'll want a better best friend, and a better car, and a better family. And I think if my regular philosophy were different then I wouldn't feel this way. My regular philosophy is not "pick the thing (friends, classmates, cars, etc etc) thatis best for you" but it's "pick the thing that you're best for" And I mean I do it for several reasons, like I'm a relatively selfless person. My sister tells me it's that psychology suggests that it's about loyalty (like they depend on me so i don't have to worry about them standing me up, or hurting me)... but whatever. I'm just selfless. Then when shit happens it's like I get selfish and start thinking like man my friends are crappy, I deserve better. And I mean in all honesty I kind of do, but when I'm not in the middle of a crisis I'm happy with them, we have fun and whatever. But basically everything is about me as far as I'm concerned right now, and my family knows I get that way so it's somewhat not as bad as it could be. But I wish the rest of the world knew that, but because they don't my family pretty much protects the hell out of me. Like my dad doubled my security, like the mail man isn't allowed to stop at the house I'm staying in right now just for both of our safety (kind of not necessary but it's comforting), he also took away my 9mm and gave me a 22cal instead and a lower voltage taser (because I'm much more likely to actually use them due to impeded judgement). My brother doubled my legal staff which is actually needed because I've already racked up 4 lawsuits in the last 2 weeks.... Tangent, this tangent will be rather extensive. So 2 of these lawsuits are because of peoples radical religious beliefs. So the first one involves a fat white lady, oh and as expected I'm a lot more vulgar when I'm going through things like this. But this is what happened- I'm at a seafood restaurant and I'm with my family and this is the day after I found out and I'm really grumpy because I just want to be alone and I had a busy day with the internship and now they're messing up my schedule for this arbitrary dinner and its like I wasn't even there like everything was ambient to me. So the food comes and I'm not even hungry but my sisters are stupid and forced me to eat so I pick up my fork and start eating, just like a normal person would. This fat lady is looking at me and I see her looking at me but I'm not really considering the fact that she's looking at me because she's fat and just unattractive so basically she's nothing substantial enough to be worthy of my concern at the moment. Then I keep eating, and then she comes up to me and asks me if I'm a christian. And when I get the way I am like after losing someone I answer questions with questions. and most of the time it's the exact same question. So I asked her if she was a christian and she says yes and I was like "okay so why don't you go sit down, don't think you're about to have an impact on my life because I already made the mental note of how insignificant you are when you looked at me and decided to get up and come over here" and her mouth dropped like she couldn't believe what I just said and I asked her why she is still standing there and she says "well I noticed you didn't participate in the blessing of the food" and i was like "the last time I blessed my food was when I was 10, and i think it's idiotic of you to assume that I'm not a christian based on the fact that i didn't do something that most christians don't do unless it's a christian holiday. furthermore, anyone with the slightest gift of logic could realize that i'm with my family and if my family says grace and i don't then i must still be a christian because i come from and still associated with my christian family. Just because I don't say grace doesn't mean I'm any less of a christian so at this point you have 3 options you can sit yourself down, my security can help you sit down, or you can say another word so that I can personally slam your head into the table. she's suing me for threatening her because of that last part and the funny thing is that my family didn't do anything because I was that unstable. But I mean looking back on it i didn't mean it, and I wouldnt do that because I'm not a violent guy, but I honestly believe that I would have done it if her fat ass would have said one more word. The other lawsuit is about me causing emotional distress or whatever... some muslim people came to my door trying to fucking convert me or something, and this was like the day after i did the thing at dinner that i just told you about, so i'm still at my house close to brook. But I don't even know why I answered the door, like I even looked at the camera and saw that they werent anyone i knew, and i knew they werent census people because of my dad but i answer the door and they said why they were their about muhammad and islam and what it means and i was really polite for about 10 mins and then i was like "well i have something in the oven so i have to go get that, thanks for the info but i'm pretty content on Christianity" then they were like oh well we can come in and talk while you cook and I looked at them like with an eyebrow raised and was like "really? that's pathetic" and they were like okay we'll stay out here and wait. so i was like mk and i closed the door and i was just going to let them sit there and then my sister pulls in the drive way and they stop her and this is my little fucking 14 year old sister and she comes in the house telling me about it and i was like wooooooowww they're desperate. And I'm extremely protective of my girls, like anyone who a girl thats close to me both friends and family., and anyone younger than me. So I go get my dad's combat pistol, idk what caliber but it shoots straight and that's all I need, and it has a nice little tactical knife lol. so I go back to the door and I tell them to leave and they start fucking begging me too hear them out and I was like I'm going to give you until the count of 10 and i start counting and they're looking at me like i'm bluffing so i get to 7 and then I pull the gun out and then they practically shit themselves and run away. then 5 minutes later they come back but with the fucking constables lol not th police the constables! so bsically they don't know that I am who I am and I have my car in the driveway and i tell them to run my plates and when they do that they'll see who i am and i didnt open the door lol i wrote a note and posted it on the window. then they just wanted to make sure i had a license for a gun and i don't need one on private propery but i showed them my concealed handgun license and they were like but you're not 21 and i was like here let me let you talk to my dad (cops never believe me when i tell them that i can legally have a gun when im 18 or older because of what my dad does, like it's written in the law and it says something like federal agents immediate family members may conceal weapons, its like federal agents, governors, mayors, and military people, but the military people are the only one that doesnt get the immediate family privilege probably because there is a soldier in almost every family lol). So those are the 2 lawsuits, i'm facing and i think it's funny that the lady from the dinner wrote me a letter talking abot how her brother is a lawyer. so i look the dude up and first of all he's a finance lawyer, not a civil lawyer lol and second of all he isn't shit compared to my brother. No one who practices in houston is shit to someone who practices in new york. like i think that one of the worst lawyers in new your could compete with the best lawyer in houston lol but my brother isnt the worst lawyer in new york, infact i think he's in the upper class of lawyers, after all he does charge 900$/hour.... thats a ton of money.... like it cost about 20,000$ a month for his services... and he has like 60 clients at any given time... lets do math really quick for kicks (i've never calculated this before) so 20k/month/person. 60 people means he brings in about 120k a month? which is 1,440,000 a year? before takes? as an oncologist.... what i make in a year will only take him 2 months to make.... damn.... i'll bring that up at thanksgiving and see how christmas turns out for me this year lol. but basically I don't give a damn who her brother is because my brother eats people like him for desert. fucking finance lawyer. All I know is that she's fat and that's not healthy, and as a future physician i'm going to let her know that it's in her best interest to get her fat ass on a treadmill for about 100 years without any breaks... she needs to just exercise non stop for the rest of her fat ass life. I never did like fat people. But the best part to me iss that people don't realize that for every lawsuit theirs a counter suit, or at least a countersuit is possible. like just the fact that you're filing a lawsuit could be considered harassment if you know how to argue it. and i was actually harassed before any lawsuit were filed so i'm not at all worried about it. This is why you should keep your religious beliefs to yourself and be minister your beliefs by example. Maybe if they were like "hi we're muslim and god loves you" people would actually look into what islam or whatever religion is being presented is about. you can't just harass people into your beliefs or harass them with your beliefs for that matter. So if anyone ever comes up to you trying to minister to you or whatever that's a won lawsuit if the lawyer knows what they're doing. Oh and I have had a lot of run in's with this kind of stupid shit like people sending me stuff on facebook or talking about why their religion is better than mine or how much more successful the people in their religion is than mine, let me know and i'll get my brother to help you out. I mean it won't be free but it wont be 900$ either. I think if I like you enough he coulld hook you up for about 100 and hour and that would only be about 1000 a month =] and he'll let you keep 100% of the settlement. and these cases can be worth as much as 700k. Oh and another funny thing that happened with the muslim people pahahaha this lady asked me what I wanted to be and i told her a doctor and she was like thats great, more muslims are doctors than christians. and i've heard that like 2 other times prior to her saying that so I already had the statistics memorized but i pretended that I didn't and I was like "well i don't know how accurate your statistics are but i haven't run into any muslim doctors, i mean i know they exist but i'm doing an internship at the texas medical center , you know the largest medical center in the world, and I've been there for 5 weeks and I hve yet to run into a muslim doctor... or at least a doctor with a muslim name." and she was like really? and i was like "yah everyone is either black, white, asian, or indian. I mean i know that some muslims aren't arab and some arabs aren't muslim but i have yet to run into a person or even seen a person that is like definitely muslim. I'm going to assume that mot of the white and black people are Christians or atheist or jewish. and the asians are either Buddhist or Christian, and the indians are either Christian or Hindu, I mean I've seen muslim nurses and RNs and NPs and PAs... but i've seen alot more of other denominations that are those too. But maybe you're thinking of dentists because most of the muslims i have seen here are dental students or dentists and even in my internship the musims are mostly dental kids... but even if you're right about the numbers, what does that say about you? are you just an idiot that couldn't make it through the application process? is every muslim that isn't a doctor just a dumb muslim? because based on what you just said, i know alot of dumb muslims... i know alot of dumb people but since muslims have to be doctors or whatever.... almost every muslim i know is dumb. All the smart muslims are pharmacy or optometry...." then she was like well there are alot of lawyers and engineers and I was like okay just because you're a lawyer doesn't mean you're smart, i mean UH law school average gpa is a 3.2, so mathematically for every 4.0 a student has there is another student with a 2.4. a 2.0 is considered academic probation, so anyone who graduates college can be a lawyer. And engineers aren't he;d to high standards either. you don't even need graduate school, you just have to pass a test and bam, you're an engineer... but i'm sure there are more christians there as well. but i do think islam comes in a close second. But in schools that actually take some dedication like veterinary or medical school, their arent too many muslims. mostly Hindu and Christians and Buddhist. I hope that doesn't offend anyone, well it's not intended to but if it does I kind of don't care. men lie, women lie; numbers don't.
but I seriously hate it when people pull the whole success card or whatever, i don't think that has anything to do with religion as it does the individual. because frankly i know a lot of Christians are poor with crappy jobs and they're dumb. but i know a lot of muslims are just like that too. And I'm surprised no one has brought this up yet but if I weren't christian i would present the prison population and the percentage of that is made of christians and i mean it's probably about 90% but then again i would counter that with the 10 commandments. dont steal, kill and stuff like that. so i'd basically just say well they just claim Christianity but they dont practice it. And i know alot of muslims who claim islam but don't practice it. hence terrorism. hence hanan's relatives. hence the slutty girls from high school. Unless it says that it's okay to devastate nations with historical death counts. or to beat the shit out of someone for no reason. or to have sex with everyone who has a penis. oh and i know some muslim guys that are man whores too. So just because someone claims something doesn't mean they practice it, and because they dont practice it, their claim on it is invalid. but anyways...
but basically ive been doubting everything lately and when i say everything i mean everything, like my career, my future in general, who i want in my future and what roles i want people to play in it and stuff like that. I'm not taking this whole death thing well at all. my phone's pretty much off 70% of the time and whenever it is on it's only on long enough to return calls, reply to texts, and delete a few emails, then it's right back off. so if i regularly call you and i stop for a while the chances are that it's nothing personal and i'm getting ready to revamp my life so i may just stop talking to you completely, just depends on who you are. But the only people I hang out with are some kids from SMDEP and Natasha and Catherine. It's weird how they're mostly brown lol but my brown friends are the best friends, like they get where i'm coming from. Its funny how my family functions like a brown family, like everyone is successful or expected to be, only certain carreers are acceptable, you're expected to behave to a certain standard, family ties are a big deal, every month there;s a big dinner that you have to wear a suite to lol the only difference is that I can marry whoever I want and they don't have to be Egyptian, German or Irish lol. And i just realized that we're kind of a big family with mercedes and hondas and toyotas lol. But yah I like brown people, and the type of asian that doesnt talk to just asians. then i would say white then arab then black lol. actually arabs and blacks are pretty competitive for the last spot. i mean don't get me wrong i have great friends in both but generally as a population i don't like them. oh actually the kind of asian that only talks to asians, those are the last lol.
anyways
idk if i told you guys, but i'm going to get to hang out with reshma shetty the weekend before my birthday =] she's brown and english, the english makes it hot!
But yah I'm going to go hang out with some of my friends now, we're pulling an all nighter tonight at the house I'm living in now. we'll be watching some boston med and other medical shows =] oh and that's doesn't sound fun to most people but if you're pre med I bet you're jealous =] and you have every reason to be pahahahaha
So I'm out.
Peace up, A-town down
-Gary Infinity
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
I love my friends.
so taday i realized how diverse my group of friends are. I mean I'm friends with pretty much everyone. Like whites, blacks, browns, arabs, some asians (the ones that dont talk to just asians) i mean everything. and it's not like just 1 muslim or 1 brownie, its like multiple of everything. I think I have more brown and arab friends than anything but they're all like right there with eachother in amount from each race. I just thought that was cool.
But I spent the day with probably my only 2 legit bast friends from highschool. Like i would probably pick them over almost anyone. but definitely anyone from brook. but we went to rice village because we HATE baybrook. everytime i go there i see people i dont want to see and theres never anything there. and the galleria is always crowded and the p-land town center is ghetto. so RV is our new spot =]
but we hung out in rice village, went to this sushi place downtown where i was forced to lose my sushi virginity... honestly, fuck sushi. it's not even like impressive. and it took forever to chew... and forever to cook too. i hate fish, but i mean it was okay but definitly not something i could have more then 5 mins of. but then we hit up herman park and visited my house on the northside of houston to watch the season premieres of white collar and covert affairs! they were both amazing. then we drove back here.
And I decided I want a mini cooper now. idk if i just want a regular or the countryman but my friend has the regular cooper sport hardtop and i drove it all say today and its just fun! it's like driving a go cart. not even exaggerating well at least not for the sport. but i really want it now, especially since i'm holding off on the dogs (possibly) and its just me and hanan so we dont need a back seat and the back is big enough to hold like 4 suitcases so we could go on roadtrips and stuff. the only thing that sucks is if it floods. but its easy to drive in traffic, easy as hell to park, fast, turns great, and just sporty. gas is above average but its premium so it doesnt make too much of a difference. but yah i want one and i could live with one easily. and it's made by BMW so its a little more luxurious than people expect. but not by much, im just saying
anyways look at the pictures.
Hope you guys enjoyed.
-Gary Infinity
But I spent the day with probably my only 2 legit bast friends from highschool. Like i would probably pick them over almost anyone. but definitely anyone from brook. but we went to rice village because we HATE baybrook. everytime i go there i see people i dont want to see and theres never anything there. and the galleria is always crowded and the p-land town center is ghetto. so RV is our new spot =]
but we hung out in rice village, went to this sushi place downtown where i was forced to lose my sushi virginity... honestly, fuck sushi. it's not even like impressive. and it took forever to chew... and forever to cook too. i hate fish, but i mean it was okay but definitly not something i could have more then 5 mins of. but then we hit up herman park and visited my house on the northside of houston to watch the season premieres of white collar and covert affairs! they were both amazing. then we drove back here.
And I decided I want a mini cooper now. idk if i just want a regular or the countryman but my friend has the regular cooper sport hardtop and i drove it all say today and its just fun! it's like driving a go cart. not even exaggerating well at least not for the sport. but i really want it now, especially since i'm holding off on the dogs (possibly) and its just me and hanan so we dont need a back seat and the back is big enough to hold like 4 suitcases so we could go on roadtrips and stuff. the only thing that sucks is if it floods. but its easy to drive in traffic, easy as hell to park, fast, turns great, and just sporty. gas is above average but its premium so it doesnt make too much of a difference. but yah i want one and i could live with one easily. and it's made by BMW so its a little more luxurious than people expect. but not by much, im just saying
anyways look at the pictures.
Hope you guys enjoyed.
-Gary Infinity
Monday, July 12, 2010
Moments in time.
So I'm sure everyone will see someone they know. For my highschool friends: you'll see ashwin, and ola. For my muslim friends you'll see Waleed, Rozmin, and Ola. To my UH friends, you'll see the people that my muslim friends see plus andrea and a few others. Weird how my muslim friends all went to UH... even in highschool. Even nourhan who was brilliant. Not that anything is wrong with UH but I mean damn, get away from home. Actually I know of a guy that left. and thats muhamed. but he went to Vandy, where i think his family moved... But just an observation. My point is, all of my friends will see at least one person they know. I guarantee it. and no, I don't count.
little bit of the TMC (Texas Medical Center)
Me and Ashwin, also known as the Owners of Wanna Be™
My brother paid me a visit and brought his fucking G550 from NewYork. I was a little embarrassed... everyone wouldn't shut up about it. but i'll get one withing 10 years. I guarentee it.
i can't remember what movie this was.... oh toy story 3! it took me like 5 mins to get that lol
My navigator
right of passage =]
Fuck dentistry. Take pictures lol
The gang
I've already taken all my calculus, and made A's in it lol so let take pics of other people stressing
We went to church one day
The annoyance...
Microbio Lab lol
Last weekend with the regsssss...
All of us
Nothing out of the ordinary lol
Hate scrubs. only nurses and prisoners wear them...
4th of july!
Our pain photo because those rocks fucking hurt!
Last day. just me and a few of the few dudes in the program
Rozmin! "We were the only sober ones there" pahahahaha
Regs + ola lol
Suitemates!
from left to right : co pilot, pilot, navigator. We provided 50 percent of the transportation of Medical scholars for free. The dental kids had to pay lol.
Best suite ever! Everyone wanted to be us. Roommate (next to me in blue) = best and last roommate ever!
615-616
Most of the people from Houston. there are like 5-6 people not pictured...
I'll be coming back to houston regularly just to visit her.
Not hard to make her laugh at all
She's not that tall, she's in like 3 inch hills. Damn Haitians
Angie!
feet of ground, fingers to the stars reaching.
I think we were all in the same area and decided on a pic... other than that i don't think there's a theme.
Same as above but with a bodyguard. I generally don't like them in my pics just for the fact like I try to be discrete. Hence them, well him in this example, being dressed like everyone else.
No theme
Louisiana Gary Sandwich. Amazing picture too!
Amy! 2013 forever lol
As I creep over her sholder while she's on her laptop
"can I help you"
"no, I can help myself..."
"you're so cute Gary, I hate it"
"I get that alot"
"*weird look* stop having such good comebacks"
"Stop breathing lol"
Unboredum! Good luck with optometry
Yay for partying all night and not going to sleep on our last day together!
Last photo =[
So there you have it.
Oh and I forgot to mention something in my post last night. I realized how true the phrases "real recognises real" and "takes one to know one" are. I've never been complemented so much about how smart I am! and it's funny how I'm getting all the praise from smart people! I mean I've always know I had good idea and I'm just overall smart, but not to many times has it been verbally expressed by someone else. I just wanted to share that with you all, I thought it was amazing to come to that realization.
I hope everyone enjoyed the pictures, a little bit of envy is welcome as well =]
I'll add some captions later on.
Tomorrow should be an amazing day with Natasha and Catherine! Probably my favorite girls outside of like my family. We're going to go hit up d-town and the Texas medical center!
Oh and I had my interview today, and for security reasons I'm not going to be too specific as to the type of business it is but basically the lady asked me "if you're pre-med, why do you want to work here" and I told here that this sector of business would be my back up plan if it didn't work out so I would like to get a foot in the door just to know what I may be getting into. Then she was like "well what made you want to do medicine?" thats when I got extremely serious. I told her about oncology then i told her about my mom, myself, and other people who have had or do have cancer and the fact that our oncologist is world renowned but just a shitty person and oncology is not to the field for shitty people to be on the doctor side of things, especially not for a family who's encountering cancer for the first time, even more so after the family loses it's first member. So I just told her that I want to strive to be the oncologist my family never had. ANd then I went on about the disparity of primary care and physicians in primary care and ho i'd like to help fill in the gap. Then she goes "well you're so passionate about it and your transcript and resume are impressive so I don't even thing you'll need a back up plan." and I was thinking no shit lol but instead I said "well I'd rather be safe then sorry, and mybe this job will change my career path, who knows" lmao I didn't want her to think I didn't need the job lol. Well I don't but you know what I mean, I need something to do!
But all and all I feel pretty confident about the interview and hopefully friday I will be employed =]
and if I get the job that would be pretty amazing because it's not far from school and I have a pretty open week. And it's not retail, so the hours are kind of amazing and I don't have to work on weekends =] and I'll never work past 7 on a weekday. Perfect for a college student! And the pay is great, like if I just work 20 hours a week then I won't even have to tap into my investments to pay for hanan's school. In fact I think there will be a surplus of money.
Oh and I found some reasearch opportunities for next summer! there are like 7 that I'm considering and I'll probably apply to all of them! but they are at MD Anderson, UTH, and Baylor. So I plan on staying in houston next summer as well, unless I get the gig in seattle for prostate cancer. But the pay rangers from about 6500$-1000$ Baylor SMART is the cheapest paying and UTH has a thing thats 2500$ and MD Andersons programs are more top $.
OMG! I forgot to tell you guys! I got to do a physical exam on some islamic royalty! i cant tell you where they were from or what their names were (thanks to HIPPA) but I was doing clinicals at MD Anderson for a week and these guys were like "whatever you do, don't take their picture" and I was like what? and they were like "royalty from the middle east is here, you wanna do a physical exam?" I was like HELL YEAH! so the problem with the queen or princess was that her optic foreman had something in it that was causing her eyes to really screw up. For those of you who aren't doctors, prepare to be impressed. So the optic foreman. Optic as in eye and foreman is a medical word for hole. so it literally mean eye hole. and if posterior to your actual orbital. But basically the reason the optic foreman is there is so that the nerves from your cerebellum and medulla oblongata can travel to your actual eye. and she had something (cant remember exactly what the name of the cancer was) that was interfering with the way the nerves signaled, thus she had blurry vision. Also she was complaining about how she was could hear her heartbeat. that wasnt cancer related but i got to explain it with close supervision from doctors and the legal people at MD lol. So for those of you who have ever worked out and aferward you hear your heart beat and your head feels like its throbbing or whatever, here's why. So youre heart has 4 major valves and each has an artery. one for your head, one for the arms, one for the lungs liver and kidneys and whay not, and one for your legs. So when you hear your heart beat it's because blood is rushing to your brain via the carotid artery. the way this artery goes is from your heart on you medial sternum side and it travels up your neck and it enters the carotid canal of your skull. Thats significant because the carotid canal runs proximal and parallel to the external acoustic meteatus and internal acoustic meteatus. The extrenal acoustic is basically the whole in you ear that you can see. the internal acoustic is what the external turns into. So basically thats where your hearing happens. and the fact that your carotid canal houses the carotid artery which carries the sound of your heart when it beats, wou;d be the reason you hear your heart beat. Same thing for when you're nervous or scared, because blood is rushing to our head so you dont pass out. And by the way you dont "hear it" you feel it. because the ear interprets vibrations, not actual sounds. but the vibrations are understood at sounds depending on what frequency the vibrations are at. But basically with the "hearing" heart beat thing, I mad an easy diagnosis that there was a volume (as in density over mass), too much blood not enough openings. So idk what they're going to do to treat it, but I know it won't be a big deal. But look at how much I learned. And don't even get me started on the leg! I was the teacher of the anatomy of the leg! well muscles and bones. I don't know all the joints or the nerves but I do know the artery nerve and vein that are proximal to the adductor longus. but that's about it. But I know mostly every muscle and bone in the body. and every part of every bone. I don't know the organs too well. like i know what the organ name in general is but i don't quite have the specifics. the heart is a bitch. I know about 50% of the brain. But basically I know wnough of anatomy right now to make a 75 on a medical student lab practical. without the wordbank! We had to do it without a word bank lol. And I probabl spent less than 15 hours trying to learn this stuff. its amazing. it was actually like medical school. I don't know how I would feel about recommending t to anyone with less than a 3.5 but it's doable. But barely... it was so crazy. you're in class from 7-5 every weekday and by the time you get to your room you just want to sleep! like I had a really hard time studying, but thats just because I was not at all ready for the load. I mean I'm taking 18 hours but I only have 3 classes a day and that lasted like 4 hours collectively. then I'd have the rest of the day for whatever. But this shit was like 30 hours. And it's not for a grade but you're still being tested and shit and for some reason you want to try because you dont want to look like the dummy in the group of smart people. But I had a rally hard time adjusting and it was tough throughout. But I'm that much more prepared for med school and I know exactly what to expect and now I can prepare for it. But I seriously think I'm going to try getting my body used to that after this year, starting in with whatever summer program I choose. But this is going to be my last easy year before shit starts getting tough. I mean the courses are already tough but the year after next i'll have an apartment, dogs, harder classes, and I'll be trying to prepare for the MCAT which is suggested to take 300 hours.... fuck. So this will probably be my last year of doing anything extracurricular or working, and probably taking more than 15 hours. Hopefully I can handle it. Damn, only one more year before i start wishing i was dead... and I know it'll fly by fast too. I still remember my freaking junior year of highschool. senior year was quick, freshman year was quicker... fuck. But whatever. I'll try and make as much money as possible and try and get my cumulative gpa up to a 3.8 if at all possible.
I seriously need to get on that polisci so I don't have to worry about it later on during the year...
I'll keep you guys posted.
Until next time
peace up; A-town down.
little bit of the TMC (Texas Medical Center)
Me and Ashwin, also known as the Owners of Wanna Be™
My brother paid me a visit and brought his fucking G550 from NewYork. I was a little embarrassed... everyone wouldn't shut up about it. but i'll get one withing 10 years. I guarentee it.
i can't remember what movie this was.... oh toy story 3! it took me like 5 mins to get that lol
My navigator
right of passage =]
Fuck dentistry. Take pictures lol
The gang
I've already taken all my calculus, and made A's in it lol so let take pics of other people stressing
We went to church one day
The annoyance...
Microbio Lab lol
Last weekend with the regsssss...
All of us
Nothing out of the ordinary lol
Hate scrubs. only nurses and prisoners wear them...
4th of july!
Our pain photo because those rocks fucking hurt!
Last day. just me and a few of the few dudes in the program
Rozmin! "We were the only sober ones there" pahahahaha
Regs + ola lol
Suitemates!
from left to right : co pilot, pilot, navigator. We provided 50 percent of the transportation of Medical scholars for free. The dental kids had to pay lol.
Best suite ever! Everyone wanted to be us. Roommate (next to me in blue) = best and last roommate ever!
615-616
Most of the people from Houston. there are like 5-6 people not pictured...
I'll be coming back to houston regularly just to visit her.
Not hard to make her laugh at all
She's not that tall, she's in like 3 inch hills. Damn Haitians
Angie!
feet of ground, fingers to the stars reaching.
I think we were all in the same area and decided on a pic... other than that i don't think there's a theme.
Same as above but with a bodyguard. I generally don't like them in my pics just for the fact like I try to be discrete. Hence them, well him in this example, being dressed like everyone else.
No theme
Louisiana Gary Sandwich. Amazing picture too!
Amy! 2013 forever lol
As I creep over her sholder while she's on her laptop
"can I help you"
"no, I can help myself..."
"you're so cute Gary, I hate it"
"I get that alot"
"*weird look* stop having such good comebacks"
"Stop breathing lol"
Unboredum! Good luck with optometry
Yay for partying all night and not going to sleep on our last day together!
Last photo =[
So there you have it.
Oh and I forgot to mention something in my post last night. I realized how true the phrases "real recognises real" and "takes one to know one" are. I've never been complemented so much about how smart I am! and it's funny how I'm getting all the praise from smart people! I mean I've always know I had good idea and I'm just overall smart, but not to many times has it been verbally expressed by someone else. I just wanted to share that with you all, I thought it was amazing to come to that realization.
I hope everyone enjoyed the pictures, a little bit of envy is welcome as well =]
I'll add some captions later on.
Tomorrow should be an amazing day with Natasha and Catherine! Probably my favorite girls outside of like my family. We're going to go hit up d-town and the Texas medical center!
Oh and I had my interview today, and for security reasons I'm not going to be too specific as to the type of business it is but basically the lady asked me "if you're pre-med, why do you want to work here" and I told here that this sector of business would be my back up plan if it didn't work out so I would like to get a foot in the door just to know what I may be getting into. Then she was like "well what made you want to do medicine?" thats when I got extremely serious. I told her about oncology then i told her about my mom, myself, and other people who have had or do have cancer and the fact that our oncologist is world renowned but just a shitty person and oncology is not to the field for shitty people to be on the doctor side of things, especially not for a family who's encountering cancer for the first time, even more so after the family loses it's first member. So I just told her that I want to strive to be the oncologist my family never had. ANd then I went on about the disparity of primary care and physicians in primary care and ho i'd like to help fill in the gap. Then she goes "well you're so passionate about it and your transcript and resume are impressive so I don't even thing you'll need a back up plan." and I was thinking no shit lol but instead I said "well I'd rather be safe then sorry, and mybe this job will change my career path, who knows" lmao I didn't want her to think I didn't need the job lol. Well I don't but you know what I mean, I need something to do!
But all and all I feel pretty confident about the interview and hopefully friday I will be employed =]
and if I get the job that would be pretty amazing because it's not far from school and I have a pretty open week. And it's not retail, so the hours are kind of amazing and I don't have to work on weekends =] and I'll never work past 7 on a weekday. Perfect for a college student! And the pay is great, like if I just work 20 hours a week then I won't even have to tap into my investments to pay for hanan's school. In fact I think there will be a surplus of money.
Oh and I found some reasearch opportunities for next summer! there are like 7 that I'm considering and I'll probably apply to all of them! but they are at MD Anderson, UTH, and Baylor. So I plan on staying in houston next summer as well, unless I get the gig in seattle for prostate cancer. But the pay rangers from about 6500$-1000$ Baylor SMART is the cheapest paying and UTH has a thing thats 2500$ and MD Andersons programs are more top $.
OMG! I forgot to tell you guys! I got to do a physical exam on some islamic royalty! i cant tell you where they were from or what their names were (thanks to HIPPA) but I was doing clinicals at MD Anderson for a week and these guys were like "whatever you do, don't take their picture" and I was like what? and they were like "royalty from the middle east is here, you wanna do a physical exam?" I was like HELL YEAH! so the problem with the queen or princess was that her optic foreman had something in it that was causing her eyes to really screw up. For those of you who aren't doctors, prepare to be impressed. So the optic foreman. Optic as in eye and foreman is a medical word for hole. so it literally mean eye hole. and if posterior to your actual orbital. But basically the reason the optic foreman is there is so that the nerves from your cerebellum and medulla oblongata can travel to your actual eye. and she had something (cant remember exactly what the name of the cancer was) that was interfering with the way the nerves signaled, thus she had blurry vision. Also she was complaining about how she was could hear her heartbeat. that wasnt cancer related but i got to explain it with close supervision from doctors and the legal people at MD lol. So for those of you who have ever worked out and aferward you hear your heart beat and your head feels like its throbbing or whatever, here's why. So youre heart has 4 major valves and each has an artery. one for your head, one for the arms, one for the lungs liver and kidneys and whay not, and one for your legs. So when you hear your heart beat it's because blood is rushing to your brain via the carotid artery. the way this artery goes is from your heart on you medial sternum side and it travels up your neck and it enters the carotid canal of your skull. Thats significant because the carotid canal runs proximal and parallel to the external acoustic meteatus and internal acoustic meteatus. The extrenal acoustic is basically the whole in you ear that you can see. the internal acoustic is what the external turns into. So basically thats where your hearing happens. and the fact that your carotid canal houses the carotid artery which carries the sound of your heart when it beats, wou;d be the reason you hear your heart beat. Same thing for when you're nervous or scared, because blood is rushing to our head so you dont pass out. And by the way you dont "hear it" you feel it. because the ear interprets vibrations, not actual sounds. but the vibrations are understood at sounds depending on what frequency the vibrations are at. But basically with the "hearing" heart beat thing, I mad an easy diagnosis that there was a volume (as in density over mass), too much blood not enough openings. So idk what they're going to do to treat it, but I know it won't be a big deal. But look at how much I learned. And don't even get me started on the leg! I was the teacher of the anatomy of the leg! well muscles and bones. I don't know all the joints or the nerves but I do know the artery nerve and vein that are proximal to the adductor longus. but that's about it. But I know mostly every muscle and bone in the body. and every part of every bone. I don't know the organs too well. like i know what the organ name in general is but i don't quite have the specifics. the heart is a bitch. I know about 50% of the brain. But basically I know wnough of anatomy right now to make a 75 on a medical student lab practical. without the wordbank! We had to do it without a word bank lol. And I probabl spent less than 15 hours trying to learn this stuff. its amazing. it was actually like medical school. I don't know how I would feel about recommending t to anyone with less than a 3.5 but it's doable. But barely... it was so crazy. you're in class from 7-5 every weekday and by the time you get to your room you just want to sleep! like I had a really hard time studying, but thats just because I was not at all ready for the load. I mean I'm taking 18 hours but I only have 3 classes a day and that lasted like 4 hours collectively. then I'd have the rest of the day for whatever. But this shit was like 30 hours. And it's not for a grade but you're still being tested and shit and for some reason you want to try because you dont want to look like the dummy in the group of smart people. But I had a rally hard time adjusting and it was tough throughout. But I'm that much more prepared for med school and I know exactly what to expect and now I can prepare for it. But I seriously think I'm going to try getting my body used to that after this year, starting in with whatever summer program I choose. But this is going to be my last easy year before shit starts getting tough. I mean the courses are already tough but the year after next i'll have an apartment, dogs, harder classes, and I'll be trying to prepare for the MCAT which is suggested to take 300 hours.... fuck. So this will probably be my last year of doing anything extracurricular or working, and probably taking more than 15 hours. Hopefully I can handle it. Damn, only one more year before i start wishing i was dead... and I know it'll fly by fast too. I still remember my freaking junior year of highschool. senior year was quick, freshman year was quicker... fuck. But whatever. I'll try and make as much money as possible and try and get my cumulative gpa up to a 3.8 if at all possible.
I seriously need to get on that polisci so I don't have to worry about it later on during the year...
I'll keep you guys posted.
Until next time
peace up; A-town down.
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