Cars are starting to piss me off.

So my honda is acting up, so it'll be in the shop all day friday, which means i'll be stuck home all day today and all day friday. probably a little bit of saturday. And my sister kind of owes me a car and we drove some m3's and m5's the other weekend and it was pretty amazing but for some reason i don't feel the need to have a bmw or mercedes anymore.... and that's saying alot because I'm probably the most materialistic person in my family. But I was thinking about Acura or infiniti. I probably won't mess with lexus at all because the all look like some kind of toyota and I know they're the same company but the only differences there really are, are the interior. Possibly volvo but the resale sucks, but I was thinking infinity g37 coupe or acura rdx, or tsx then do the mercedes bmw thing when those cars die in like 10 yrs, I should be in my fellowship by then if i don't do the MD JD. But I've considered so many cars and none of them are really calling my name if you know what i mean. well nothing practical. but I've looked at audi, merc, bmw, mini, honda acura, vw, volvo, pretty much everything i would want to look at like even chevy and ford.

Wow my dad is really pissing me off. I'm so sick of people in the generation before me. Guess what motherfuckers, things change over time. I have a phone that does more than a computer ever did during your time. Hell I have a calculator and a camera that can do more that your computers. Everything is more expensive, cars are 30k shoes cost 75$ shirts cost 30 and pants are 70. just because you got cheap stuff when you were young doesn't mean i should get cheap stuff. God I'm so sick of precedents. If people would just realize that this is a new era where men like men and people lose their virginity at 13 and the shorts are shorter and everything is more expensive and you cant do shit without a college education hell you almost need some graduate work to even get a job, people do drugs people get drunk, people do whatever the hell makes them happy and I think that society should just accept it. Let people do their own thing and just realize that you cant stop someone from doing what makes them happy. not without killing them or something. If I drink alcohol and you know I drink alcohol don't ask me about what's in my cup, it not your business. It's my cup, fuck you. If I'm white and I want to date a mexican, don't worry about it, it's my life fuck you. If you're from a different era, thats fine, do you. But you can't just force your out of date philosophies and ideologies on someone who is living in a different time. It's a lost cause. And I don't care what the situation is, if i want to drive a 50,000$ car, if you don't like it thats too bad because you didn't drop 50,000$ on a machine. And it's my car and my music, if you don't like it, get the fuck out and walk. the point is you can't force someone to do something they don't want to do and you cant expect someone not to do something they want to do. It would be foolish of you to think otherwise. I mean I'm not trying to offend anyone, well i don't care if i do but this wasn't meant to be offensive. And I'm not asking anyone significantly older than me to accept todays standards, but I am asking that you leave it alone. "kids will be kids" that apples here. let us do us.

I'm still pissed...

But in other new I just finished watching every episode of greys anatomy ever made. I stated as soon as school was over. Now I'm just waiting on the new season of burn notice, royal pains, and another show starting at the beginning of june, like next week. But other than those and SMDEP I don't really have anything to look forward to... Oh and I got introduced to the facilitator of this genomics program at baylor. Hopefully I can be one of the 8 applicants selected for the research opportunity. And if not theirs always the SMART program at baylor. But one of those two are my plans for next summer. The genomics program pays 5000 for 9 weeks, thats almost like a 30,000$ salary. and its only 2 hours a day. But if i do one of those next summer I'm looking to do this cancer research in Seattle the following summer before I take the MCAT. the cancer thing is 5000 as well but its over 11 weeks. still amazing nonetheless. But hopefully I just do good on the mcat and with the gpa i have now, all that reasearch and a strong mcat, I can get into any med school I want. So this time in 2012 don't expect me to be too accessible, I'll be studying cancer and the mcat. And everyone keeps telling me it'll be here before I know it but I feel like it's already here lol. but we will see what the future has in store for me. I can't wait.

ok back to me being pissed

outty

Oh and Hip hop

So my Nanna called me today and I was in the car with my wayne playing, relatively loudly. She told me to stop listening to it because it's the worst kind of music. When I played golf I got a lot of criticism about my choice of music when I arrived at a tournament. And other people are critical of hip hop and that's fine. But just so everyone can get off of me, Hip hop isn't trash– it's brilliant. Sure killing and sex are not things that I endorse but if you just take yourself out of the context and look at the rhetoric it's truly brilliant. And I only listen to lyricist so the shit I'm on is extra brilliant.

"Last name ever, first name greatest
like a sprained ankle boy I aint nothing to play with
started of local but thanks to all the haters
I know g4 pilots on a first name basis"

Drake said that and if you just look at it he's saying that he's the greatest ever. He's like a basketball player's sprained ankle, dont play with him, as in don't take him lightly or don't piss him off. He started off small and his haters made him big so now he has a jet and knows the pilots so well he calls them by their first name, informally.

"She insist she's got more class, we know
swimming in the money come and find me, nemo
if I was at the club you know I balled, chemo"

He swims in his money like nemo swims in the ocean. Chemotherapy makes you lose you hair and go bald. Brilliant shit.

"y'all know them, well fuck it me either
point the biggest skeptic out I'll make them a believer
it wouldnt be the first time I've done it
throwing hundreds when I should be throwing ones
bitch I run it "

"I real cant see the end getting any closer
but i'll probably still be the man when everything is over
so I'm riding through the city with my high beams on
can you see me can you see me get your bi xenon
y'all just do not fit the picture turn your wide screen on
and if you're thinking I'm going to quit, before i die, dream on"

like if you cant see me turn on your damn car lights that are bixenon. brilliant.

"I am on a 24 hour champagne diet
spilling while I'm sipping I encourage you to try it
I'm probably just saying that because I don't have to buy it
the club owner supplies it, boy im on that fly shit
I am what everybody in my past, don't want me to be
guess what, I made it, I'm the motherfucking man I just want you to see
come take a look, get a load of this ____ quit fronting on me
don't come around and try to gas me up, I like running on E"

he's celebrating all the time because the only time you have champagne is to celebrate and he wastes it because he didn't by it because the club owner is giving it to him. everyone wanted him to fail, but he made it and he is being arrogant about it. so don't act like everything's cool, and dont come to him trying to piss him off because he likes to be calm. When you try pissing him off you're gassing him up and he doesn't like being gassed up because he prefers to run on E, as in empty gas tank! Brilliant!

I'm not quoting Wayne because his stuff is just punch lines, essentially he's not saying anything that can be followed like a story, but his punch lines are crazy. I'm kind of the same way, unless I write it, like the most recent script was about killing people and the metaphors that could go with it.

"I'm sending shots, it's happy hour
I shoot from close range, I going to need a shower
Brain is in the sink, body is on the counter
The women and the kids, leave them how I found them
I'm a real person, you're a still person
I cut your face, have you looking like a sealed person
Then I'll pull your card, and I'll deal with you
Gamble with your life, is this your lucky night
My girl is oh so right, every night I kiss her twice
Big boy money bitch, pockets on charlie white
Been shot and I'm scared for life, tell the cops I know all my rights
Ride with choppers, I don't mean Harley bikes
Drop it, like a bag of ice
Windows dark, car bright
on the side of my car is a horse
I'm talking Ferrari bitch, you don't even have a Porsche
Dr. Infinity man, bullets give you an open heart
The ocean is crazy, aka Noah's ark...
And I'm Noah. "

Thats me, and I'm sending shots, like bullets– but drinks too because its happy hour
I shoot with pistols, close range, so the blood will probably splatter on me so I'll need a shower
dissect the body, but leave the women and the kids alone
I really have a gun and you're lay still when i shoot
cut your face, and you'll look sealed when they sew it back together
then I'll play the card I'm dealt and gamble
Girl's pretty, kiss her
so much money my pockets are fat
been shot, left a scar lol- but when i get back at it, the cops don't need to read me my rights
I have guns called choppers, not to be confused with Charley Davidson motorcycles
change the subject
black windows white car
the Ferrari logo (no i don't have a ferrari, yet. My dad and I went to he exotic car dealership in north houston in december and I drove 1 and a aston martin and a r8 and i think a maserati, but it looked a lot like the martin) but my dad may get one soon, i won't be getting one until I'm his age probably... sigh.

but I'm going to be a doctor and I can use my bullets to open your heart up, open heart surgery
idk where the rest came from.

I was just in a violent mood, but I'd never kill anyone, at least not in cold blood. But the point is, hip hop is brilliant if you can get past the context. Barack Obama seems to agree with me, and he's one of the few politicians I respect intellectually, though I tend to disagree with him politically. But hey, whatever.

Hip Hop is brilliant. Case in point.

So I'm back on my productionness

So I've been a bum since I've got home, all I've done was lay mulch and lay around. My sister says it because I wasn't happy with my grades and I needed time to cope... but whatever. For those of you who don't know and want to know, my academics were the worst case scenario. My freshman year is a 3.625. It's commendable but I'm a little disappointed still. But next year should be better, I kept my bio teacher, better chem teacher, no math, kept the political science teacher, speech is my forte, and i have no info on my physics professor. But the only classes I'm concerned with are Chemistry and Physics. I should do a lot better than a 3.6 next semester. But like I said, I'm not satisfied but at least I'm still in the range of baylors GPA, and .175 away from their average. I should be set by the end of next year, hopefully, assuming ochem doesn't rape me.

But anyways, I'm back and ready to get in gear. SMDEP is in 5 days, they'll prep me for physics and ochem, and the MCAT so thats guaranteed benefit. The whole biochem and anatomy will be helpful too but later on. And I can get my 40 hours of shadowing out of the way so I won't have to worry about it later on.

But outside of SMDEP I have alot to do before school gets back underway. I really want to finish my Political Science course work before the semester starts, and I would like to read this financial book and continue to work on my own book. For those who I don't actually email outside of the blog, I've been working on a book that basically about playing the cards you are dealt, I've only gotten 2 chapters done and they are about learning from mistakes and fate vs consequence. The latter is my favorite so far. But I've been working on it since october, well I haven't worked on it since december so only 2 months have been dedicated. And the working title I'm thinking of is something like "I have never made an A in English, but I'm still writing this book" and at the time I never did make an A in english because I hate reading, but I made my first A in english the fall semester. And in highschool a B in AP english is worth more than an A in regular english so... lol. but it's basically about going through life knowing you're not perfect and making your weaknesses stronger. or at least that's what I want it to be about, but we'll see how it evolves. oh and I still need to make 950$ for my friend. All of that with like 11 weeks to do it. 6 of which are kind of occupied. But I'll make it.

Also, I've gotten back into my religious routine of reading the bible and praying and whatnot. So with that being said, to whom it may concern, I'm working on forgiving you. I was so upset that I needed advice from a bishop on how to do something I thought I knew how to do. But I've never been faced with something so absurd and evil. So just know, that with time I'll forgive you. You are in my prayers, because frankly you're sick, so I'm going to pray that God blesses you're mind and heart with wisdom and grace. I'll be praying for myself as well because I almost sunk to your level. But seriously you need help, and I say that with pure intentions, man to man, you need professional help. This whole time I thought you were stupid but my sister, who does this for a living, suggested that you seek professional help. So it's not that you're stupid, you're sick. And I hope you can humble yourself to seek such help and if you're embarrassed dont be, all kinds of people are psychologically sick. Murderers, and geniuses alike. Failures and success stories alike. But seriously, that may be something you want to look into. And I hope that you're not so blinded by your pride that you don't know I'm talking about you. And if it makes you feel better, if my sister wasn't a psychiatrist, I probably wouldn't be the person I am today. Actually there's no way I would be. I probably would have submitted to drugs, or some form of detrimental treatment, but she's been here for me and has help me. So I guess you could say that I'm just like you, I'm sure you haven't been through what I have because we're 2 different people in 2 different situations, and on 2 different levels. But that doesn't mean you don't deserve help. But in short you're in my prayers and hopefully I'll be as sincere as possible so that I can forgive you. But if not, do as you please, but I know that I'm going to be okay. But I do appreciate the experience, you have only made me stronger and I truly am grateful because you have contributed to the growth of me spiritually and emotionally. Hopefully this has helped you in someway too. But I'm done with the negativity, I have bigger and better things to do, and I know I've said that before and sunk back down to this level but it's a process for me and hopefully I'll live up to it this time. And if not, I'll just have to pick myself up and try again. I'm human, I'm learning too.

Well, now thats that. But my productivity is back. Hopefully I can complete everything I would like to complete in the time I have before school. Wish me luck, all prayers are appreciated.

- Gary Infinity

Also does anyone know where I can get scrubs? Turns out I need scrubs... and I refuse to wear women scrubs but men scrub shirts are too big. the pants are fine but I need shirts. The 2 people that wear scrubs in my family are women so... no. But if you all could just send me some places in houston. I've tried Burlington coat factory. does walmart do scrubs? or target? Let me know

I'm really getting sick of being lectured.

So the family keeps giving me lectures about the same stupid stuff. It's such a waste! Like I think I'm capable of retaining information the first time around but whatever.

The lord is my shepherd and with that I don't mind being considered a sheep right now, I'm great. I don't care who you are, you're not going to out think God or be stronger than him or even hide from him. All things are recorded in his eyes and will be considered on judgment day. My God is my judge. There's nothing you can say or do to stop me from getting where he wants me to be or getting what he wants me to have. Face it.

I'm doing just fine. The lord is with me. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever"

You'll have to excuse my lack of interest, this is kind of like when my life is threatened and I don't worry about it because I have bodyguards. Something like that but exponentially greater.

Douche. The dumb conversations I have daily.

Who does that? I'm actually a little upset because the type of dude this guy is. He's comparable to Mark Slone on Grey's Anatomy. He screws everything that moves... Preverts aren't allowed to think anyone I love and care about is cute.

then the stupidity of the conversation upset me as well, like he asked me what I just told him. and It's not like he couldn't just scroll up the page to see what I just said. And I mean why would I lie, the're no reason for him not to believe me. It's on my profile... stupid people... then again, he made a D in Cal 2 so I don't know why I expected better. Clearly logic isn't his thing, with the D and all lmao.

And I didn't find anything funny about the conversation. But he was particularly humored for some reason. Good for him. "lol"


Anyways, sorry for the lack of posts, I've been busy with alot. Been to about 4 different courts for various reasons, don't worry no one's suing me lol just needed some consults on various issues. I remember one court in particular, I believe it was the family court downtown, I walk in and the lady told me "down and around" and I was looking at her like, "are you asking me about sex?" but I just asked her to elaborate lol and she was talking about the metal detector. It took me 3 freaking tries to get through it. The first one was my belt, the second one was my ring that they said shouldn't go off, and the third on was my shoes (which have no metal in them, they're leather and rubber. Then while I'm basically getting dressed again infront of everyone she asked me how old I was and I told her 19 and she was like "you look 14"... ok? thanks? what am I supposed to do with that? I wanted to be like "well you look stupid and you're obese, but I'm not advertising it now am I?" like seriously that was really stupid f her to say, I know I look young, but not 14 young, ever and I was in a freaking suit and I had a brief case and a nice watch, i don't wear watches unless I'm meeting someone who is smarter than me or has more money than me, its just a thing I do. In this case the person of interest met both criteria lol. but that was stupid, not to mention the fact that I scanned my damn drivers license with my date of birth. First of all 14 yr olds dont get drivers licenses, second of all had your dumbass went to highschool you'd know how to do "mental math".... Maybe I just looked particularly young because my bodyguards are particularly bigger than me.... she's still stupid.

And then today at HEB this damn lady asked me if I had my parents permission to have a sample hot dog, and I go, well I'm 19 so yah, and then she was like "hahahaha my son looks young like you" ... ok? thanks? I don't know why people think that's a compliment... I'm not a woman, and even at my age women want to look older not younger... and the fact that her son is like me makes her look dumb for doubting my age...



But there is good news, the other day Hanan and I made dinner for the family and they actually liked it. The first time was a swing and a miss because she read the recipe wrong lol. And had it not been for me it would have been a swing and a miss the most recent time because she wanted to bake the casserole 10 mins longer than it was supposed to and she would have left the desert uncovered and it would have dried and she would have put like 2 times as much onion than there was supposed to be lol. But there's a reason we make a great team, we catch each others mistakes and thats in all contexts. And I'm sure the family appreciated it, at least their stomachs did lol.

And she got to see her first real life golf match too. Me my dad and 2 of his friends, decent. Saw a few of my old teachers, got a ride to a cart 100ft away lol, talked shit and mocked my dad's laugh at the last time Hanan cooked and messed it up "yackyackyackyackyack"... asshole lol, but it was kind of funny, sorry honey. And surpisingly I wasn't haggled for autographs, but then again I only saw like 4 people lol. 2 of wich were my teachers and the other 2 being my dad's friends pahahaha. Good day not to have security. Well my dad was there so i guess he would technically qualify as security.

Oh and this morning I almost shot and old guy... I woke up and the first thing I do when I wake up is go to the pantry to get food for my dog, and I usually dont get dressed, and I sleep in my boxers... and when I sleep with some weapon under the pillow, and last night it happened to be a gun... tonight its a knife (I'm an excellent knife thrower, just to toot my own horn lol) so I'm like still squinting because of the light and I just the see this dude going through the shit in the kitchen and there is no form of notification so I send a shot off (every gun accept for the riffles and automatics have a blank in the chamber so every first shot is a warning shot(no bullet discharges), there's a psychological reason for that because the way someone reacts to the warning shot will determine if you really need to shoot them or not... for those of you who don't know) and he nearly shit himself and I just asked him if he was alone and what he was doing and he was just like "I'm with pamela and he said the code word. and it was so funny because later in the day we were talking about the rug that I made out of the dear I shot when I was like 11 and i was telling him about how it was 100 yds out and I was in the truck and the dear was taking a shit lol and then out of nowhere he was like "you still have that gun" pahahahahahaha I told him I gave it to my dad because I'm not interested too much in rifles. I'm a pistol kind of guy. Tomb Raider ish. I really want to get a thigh holster soon, those are easier to run in. "pistol on my side, you don't want to hear that thing talk" then we started talking about pistols and marksmanship and he didn't believe me when I said I'm better with a gun than most of the secret ervice and he was like "nooooo, you know what those guys are capable of" and I was just like "actually my dad coordinates them and I didn't have anything to do one summer so I trained with them when I was 16" pahahaha and he was telling me theres no way I was that good and I just said, well if that round from this morning wouldn't have been a blank you'd know how good I am lol

I hate old people. Like after 70, we stop talking. Nanna is the only exception... because after that they're slow, and their speech slurs, and and they look droopy and dont get me started on the black one's they are always singing these damn church hymns and reciting bible verse randomly... "the lord is my shepherd"... actually he's my shepherd too, so if you could get over yourself that would be great... And for dinner, we actually said grace only because he was their. And don't get me wrong, I'm a very religious person, but I'm not spiritual on bit. I've never spoken in tongues and the only way I praise God is with hand claps and calmly singing. I don't scream, thats embarrassing. I don't dance, even more so, and I suck at dancing. And I don't talk to myself, because thats the first sign of insanity. I'm not insane lol so I'm not going to show syptoms of insanity by talking to myself infront of 1000 people. But he's going to be here all weekend... I think I'll just go live with melon until he leaves. Hear that melon? Make room.


hmmmm nothing ese to update you all on... finances are looking great but the market absolutely sucks, barely above 10,000... but other than that all is well. Darlene episodes are a little bit more bearable, getting tons of sleep, wasting tons of time doing nothing, Hanan and I are great, we got to spend time with my sister, stuff like that.

Outty.

It just keeps getting better.

So if if a question is asked, generally i'll provide an answer if I have one. And if it's rhetorical I'll be an asshole about it because generally rhetorical questions are asked in an asshole tone of voice. fight fire with fire or whatever. TANGENT MOMENT. Fire with fire. when you fight fire with fire you're stupid, in the litteral context. why dont you get water, thats a guaranteed win... maybe theres a metaphor with in a metaphor there.... anyways. So on this damn group for smdep this girl asked when we wear professional clothing and I answered.... I answered politely because it was a polite question. Then right as I'm dozing off at about 1 a.m. my stupid iphone makes its little stupid facebook notification noise and to my surprise this girl wants to be my friend... I'm pretty anal about denying people... I mean i don't think I have 400 friends on facebook. I know alot more than 400 people and the only people I generally accept are my actual friends and business partners, lawyers, doctors, or anyone I may need to one day get in contact with. so it's still pending... I don't want to accept her simply because I dont know her.... but I'm expected to get to know her because she's one of the 60 people I'll be getting to know over the 6 weeks there. So what I think I'll do is just keep it pending and if she asks I'll just say I don't ever check it.... so now all my status updated have to be from my phone so that i can say when i do check it all i see is newsfeed, no requests. Like i want to accept her but I won't let myself. Like a smoker trying to quit or something. these people are entirely way to social... i feel like im being smothered already... pessimism at its best right now.


And I cant go to sleep because I keep thinking about my Dad. Like over the last hour I have formulated a new thing to do before I die and that's to advocate for my dad. Idk why but all of a sudden that's my obsession. I can't even imagine it because he knows everything, litterally, and he handles everyone's problems (as far as our immediate family is concerned)... and the only way I can see myself advocating for him is if he has cancer... and it has to be in the future when I'm an oncologist. And family doesn't treat family so another oncologist would be treating him and I see that consuming my life. I would be there with him watching he oncologist like they're a cardiovascular surgeon, in surgery... I can't see me being the appropriate advocate any other time. if he's in legal trouble he has his own law degree and my brother, if he's having arthritis my sister will be a physical therapist soon, if he has Alzheimer's that same sister was a neurologist, and if he gets old and crazy, my other sister is a psychiatrist. The only time I see him needing me is if he has cancer... And it's not cool because he's been there for me no matter what I did, no matter how much he's disagreed, no matter what he stayed with me. I remember in the 7th grade I had cracked my skull at a band concert because I was running and I ran into a kid, a sinificantly larger kid, and bounced off of him into a sharp concrete corner. I was running, but I remembered walking, and I could have sworn the dude pushed me... and my dad stood by me when it came time to deal with the legal and school discipline issues. we didnt sue anyone, and i didn't get in trouble for running, but just the concern he had and the fact that he took like 3 weeks off from work to just sit there next to me while I watch tv, when he could have hired a nanny or a bodyguard.... I feel like I owe him so much and the only time I can be there is when he's dying with cancer... and even then I'm not the one treating him, someone else get to treat him while I watch, in fear.... And I think I have it the worst out of all of my siblings, because he's been there for all of us equally and we've all been through a lot both together and separately and no matter what he was there. But for my brother the worst case scenario is that my dad loses money because he made a mistake, for my sister the worst thing is that he's sad or upset or emotionally unstable in some way, for my other sister he has arthritis, or loses short term memory or something... but for me, he dies, worst case scenario... how sucky is that, and for my little sister who wants to be an investment banker right now he looses 30% of his money becayse he never invests more than 30%. and if that a big deal he has rich kids who will take care of him. I mean he may never get cancer and I may never need to advocate for him, but if he does, I may be the one telling my family "hey guys, you know that amazing man that is 1/2 of our dna and was always there for us, yah well he's gone, forever, because my job kind of sucks..." That is probably my third biggest fear. Hell my first has already happened and my second may or may not, but thats the 3rd. idk why this is going through my mind. I wonder if it happens to everyone, like thinking of some tragic possibilities when you're in the middle of a life transition. But don't get me wrong, my dads fine, mentally and physically, he can probably still take me in a fight but thats only because he hasnt taught me that russian style fighting he knows. everytime we spar the only time he wins is when he pulls some shit like that. But I'm going to talk to my sister about it, and see if she's had any patients like me. I have a few other questions... but I'll keep you guys posted.

Also, Gouti's. Idk if you guys still tune into my blog, but just know that I'm done talking shit about you, at least on the blog. I used to use this as a way of communication with you all, but you're no longer of my concern because from the looks of things, I'll be getting what I want. I feel that you all aren't fond of me, and the feeling is mutual. So there's no need for me to let you know. If I am inclined to communicate with you, I'll do it directly. I may call I may email. I have everyone's contact info and if it changes my dad will more than likely let me know. the only people I'm not at all concerned with are Noor because she's young and gullible in my opinion and "Ferial?" Thats what my dad assumed your mothers name to be. I don't know if that's right or not but her. I have everyone elses emails, all of them, but if I send you a message I'll try sending it to the most active one or the one that was used last if they arent too active. I have your phone numbers too, house and cellulars. I don't imagine I will need to call you at work, but if I need to get you at work my dad can just talk to the security there, but don't think I'll harass you, the only time I intend to exercise communication by phone is if it's an emergency with hanan and even then probably not. I'm the kind of guy that doesn't remember 911 during emergencies... Tangent.... But my point is that you don't have to look at my blog, if you still do. I'll send an email instead. It's probably going to get a lot more personal, and at the same time a lot more pointless(my blog, that is). But I mean if you're actually interested in my life in a noncreepy kind of way, enjoy reading, I encourage it. But if not, I'm asking you to stop, all of you, it doesn't matter if we were great friends or if you never knew me. Please stop. But I do acknowledge the fact that I can't stop you and you can decide to keep reading, but it's creepy, but then again.... you know what nevermind, I'm better than that. But I would just appreciate it if you could stay out of my life and keep me out of yours, I uncharacteristically offered you all a second chance and you all declined. It's probably the best because I tend to regret things that I do uncharacteristically, like that apology. But the past is the past. Just because people do horrible things doesn't mean they are horrible people. I think we can all learn from that, in different contexts. Let's hope this is the last time I intentionally communicate with you, because the next time I need or want to talk to you my dad or my brother will do the talking for me, in terms of the law of course. I'm not trying to scare you, I'm just being straight forward so you aren't surprised or anything. So hopefully we all get what we want for ourselves in life as individuals, and if not, hopefully we become better people because of it.

Last few words

I don't know any of you guys well, even the ones I used to know extremely well, but I do know Hanan, and I do know that relatives seem to have the same tendencies and Hanan is very indecisive and not the most confident person I have ever met. So assuming you guys are like her in those areas heres some advice. Generally your first instinct is the right one, don't second guess yourself, academically or in life. and as far as confidence is concerned here are some quotes that have blessed me through life and have gotten me where I am today, amongst other things. Confidence is admirable to everyone. You will admire the confidence of someone you strongly dislike even if you don't want to. With confidence you can turn nothing in to something. with confidence you can turn thing around when everything is falling apart. But be careful because their is a difference between arrogance and confidence. Most people hate me because I'm arrogant. and their hatred just fuels the arrogance like a "in your face" kind of deal. and those sound kind of like quotes lol... but here are the quotes.


First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do
-Epictetus

They can because they think they can
-Virgil

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude
-Thomas Jefferson

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams
-Eleanor Roosevelt

I am more afraid of an army of 100 sheep led by a lion than an army of 100 lions led by a sheep.
- Talleyrand

and in a way my signature "when the going gets tough the tough go to work" or maybe not. idk.

But if you don't like them its fine, you can google quotes. but confidence and make things alot easier, in any context. And if your already confident, sorry I couldn't help you better yourself. I generally try to offer advice when ending communication, its just an honorable thing to do. But at least I can say I tried.

Good luck with your endeavors, both individually and collectively
Gary Infinity

Everyone in this freaking group is old.

So judging by the groups demographics, most of these people are going to be minority... great, 6 weeks with black people and hispanics. I hope they are like me, and not stereotypical. if thats the case I'll probably live at home... And all of them are 2012, the only people I've seen from 2013 well the only person other than myself, is my friend that I already know from A&M. I guess it makes me look smart to be with the older students... and everyone's profile is private.... which is consistant with every doctor and med student I've met. I guess thats a good sign. Another good sign is that none of them have bogus middle names like "gary beast infinity". I cant get an emotion established about this group, at first i was excited, then i was judgmental (it's wrong but I cant help it), and now I'm starting to give them the benefit of the doubt (which is good). But I mean you have to be smart to get into the program so I'm hoping we're all on the same level. I dont want to be the dumbest, and I dont want to be the smartest... I'll keep you all posted. The lab coat is a little to big, but the ID is legit lol.

Okay, I should go to bed.
Goodnight
(bed bugs)
you know the drill

outty

So I updated my facebook "about me section".

Let me know if you think I should add something or take something away.
Okay, read.





My name is Gary. I'm changing my last name to Infinity when I become financially independent.

I'm not black, I'm African American. Egyptian, German, and Irish to be exact. Mostly Egyptian, which is why saying I'm black is politically incorrect. I don't know if I'm considered Arab though but I look "mixed with black and something".... but Egypt is in Africa, so I'm going with African American. Whatever.

I don't know where I'm from. I say I'm from Houston but the truth is, I was born on an airplane, while it was in the air. People think I'm kidding until I show them my birth certificate, the city part of it is blank. But the plane was leaving Philadelphia and going to Houston. Sooooooo....

I'm not into much, all I do is study, look over my investments, and research cars (I'm in the market for a new car)... but studying occupies my time the most.

My dreams include practicing oncology; a happy everlasting marriage with my wife; German Shepherds and Doberman Pinschers; Mercedes Benz; a home worth more than $1,000,000, 3 children (boy.girl.girl or boy.boy.girl... in that order, please God); happiness.

I'm usually with a select group of people 2-6, or alone, but that's the way I prefer it. I don't do crowds, crowding, or touching, I like space. I have 3 sisters, 2 old, 1 young. and a brother, old, ass.

I'm pursuing a career in oncology. Just to save you the time it takes to google "oncology", its involves curing or treating cancer, but it literally means the study or tumors. What I want to do is a combination of of practice and research.

What you think of me is not detrimental to me, I do not care but I am always interested to know. I won't hold back my true feelings, either. I'll tell you what I think, apologize for being brazen, and move on with my life because the worlds going to keep turning.

Cant think of anything else... if you have a question... just ask, but don't get carried away, i kinda hate questions but I'll answer 2 or 3 before getting annoyed

good day =]

Oh and for the creepy people:
5'5", 123 lbs[before I use the restroom on a good day], brown eyes, curly hair, and my penis is 202ft long, give or take a few micrometers pahahahaha. Thanks for being a creep.

If this makes me sound mean, trust me I'm not, in my opinion. But I am pretty blunt... I don't know if you should be concerned or not, it just depends on what I think of you... Like I said I'm blunt, but I'm moderately nice about it.


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I know it looks a lot like the old one and it basically is.

And the rest of the first paragraph is on my facebook but I'm not putting that on the blog. Too many creepers.

but the only changes there really are, are:
-I just added everything in the second paragraph after the second sentence
-the whole 3rd paragraph is new
-the part about cars in the 4th paragraph
-took some stuff out of the 5th and added the please God part
-Added the second sentence in the 6th
-Took alot out of the 7th and added "but it literally means the study or tumors"
-8, 9, 10 and 11 are exactly the same
-just added the 12th


and I took some quotes off but there is still a butt load of wisdom in the quote section lol

And I added some basic info like the sibling thing and the current city and the looking for part... pretty much just completed facebook lol finally 3 years later.

And changed my "write something about yourself" section to:
I usually don't finish what I start. My life is a major project that was due yesterday.


That's a pretty good representation of my life, eh?

mk out.

Never Been so ANNOYED! But I'm starting a nonprofit.

So there's this group on facebook for SMDEP 2010 specifically for the houston site and everyone's like "omg I cant wait" and I got an invite to the group from the idaho girl and I would have never known about it. But thats all everyone is saying "like omg two more weeks." it's either that or a question about the dorms or what we will be doing or where everyone's from or about the weather in Houston. One girl even asked "how's the rain in houston" and I just thought to myself, "like the rain everywhere else". but I'm sure they arent that stupid, they're just curious, I suppose. And we have roommates.... That upsets me slightly, Yale, howard, and even the Virginia sites dont have roommates... FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK! I just got alot more annoyed, I'm logged into facebook right now, but its in another tab, and I'm on a dual screen iMac, like you see at colleges but with dell's so the other monitor is for chatting with Hanan and you know that stupid sound it makes when you get a chat on facebook, I hate it because everyone I enjoy chatting with gets on gmail, skype, or ichat. So i know its someone I don't want to talk to and im not going to respond but just the fact that they want or need to talk to me is irritating.
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And bankertellers know entirely way too much, all they need to see is my account number and my name. I had a whole conversation with this girl about something I bought and a person who shares an account with me and that persons family.... I just wanted to make a 51$ deposit, is that too much to ask?
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And I've been laying mulch all day and I've never felt so weak. I started this non profit group with some friends and there are 5 people. Here's the deal. So one of the 5 of us cant pay for school, so the other 4 of us are going to help. I decided that the 4 of us helping have to make $1000 each over the summer to get the tuition of our friend covered and the person we're helping has to make 3000 (a little less) to cover their room an board. But the way that the 4 people have to make $1000 has to be helping someone else. So basically, we cant get a job and we cant donate, we have to work for actual people. I'm doing landscaping basically around my neighborhood and the neighborhoods close by. and I'm doing it at 10$ an hour which is 66% less than commercial landscapers so I'm saving people money while making money for my friend. so I got 50$ today for my neighbors back yard... laying mulch, by hand, alone, thats some tough shit. I don't give a damn who you are.... 10-3.... long ass time, hot ass sun, heavy ass bags.... but it was helping 2 people at the same time. So 50$ down, 950$ to go. But I m going to put some flyers up and basically what I do is anything that has to do with landscaping like mowing, "mulching", cutting shit down, weeding, watering, planting, etc etc. But I'm probably going to expand to painting and cleaning and car washing because those are a little easier on the body and more indoors lol and it gives me more opportunities to work and what not. Personally I think this whole project is a great idea, well one of my best ideas (most of my ideas are great lol) and it will be a huge success if the other 3 people pull through. and if the one that needs it doesnt quite make 3000 then I'm sure the 4 of us can make 1100 or we could find them a place to stay. I'm going to feel like an amazing person when this is over, and I feel like the 5 of us will be life friends. College, got to love it.

Oh and question, does that count as volunteering? Idk because I'm getting paid to do it, but the money isn't for me? send me an email with your thoughts.

So here is the beginning of my portfolio. For authentication purposes I'll have my dog in all of the pictures of my work so people know that I took it and I did it.

So here is proof that she's actually my dog and that I didn't find pics of a random lab in treated yards lol


and here's her in my work

mulch


mulch


mulch


mowed yard


edged yard




Let me get started on these flyers, and if you guys need help with anything let me know, well as long as you're in Houston. And if you aren't close, but in Houston I'll probably still do it if you're family, or I know you. 10$ an hour.

Outty.

Poetry about Abnormal Cell Growth

So the friend in Idaho that I was telling you about showed me this poem. I cried my first time reading it. It brought memories back and made me realize it was true. I hope this helps people who are going through cancer or dealing with someone with cancer or who have a loving memory of someone who was consumed by cancer. May peace be with you.

Cancer is so limited…
It cannot cripple love
It cannot shatter hope
It cannot corrode faith
It cannot destroy peace
It cannot kill friendship
It cannot suppress memories
It cannot silence courage
It cannot invade the soul

Stupid people say that smart people are stupid. Think about it.

So I was in the store and there was a dude wearing a UH shirt and his wife was wearing a UT shirt. Ok I thought nothing of it, its a school, whatever. Apparently the dude was inclined to make a comment on my shirt. I was wearing an A&M shirt, naturally. He said Aggies were stupid, and I took it personally, I shouldn't have, but I did. So I addressed the stupidity of his argument. I asked him what made him feel that aggies were stupid? And he says, "the football team sucks" and I was just like what? Then I realized how stupid he was and just walked away but he really wanted to have this argument, so he is following me around Rooms-To-Go and then I just called my security detail (I didn't think I would need them to be in the store at rooms to go, plus I broke on of their recliners so I was going to buy one just like it but with a massager thing in it but as a surprise so I told them to stay in the car because it shouldn't be a big deal, I was just going to give my card to the dude so I could pay and leave. But I called them in and this dude got even more angry because I really wasn't listening to him. So they brought the dog in and we don't really use the dog, it's more of a deterrent, for some reason people are a lot more afraid of dogs than they are people. But my security can do alot more damage than any dog will ever do lol. But anyways, so he was like "if you were a man, you would talk to me" and I just told myself, "no if I were gay, I would talk to you" . but why does everyone think that by saying "if you were a man you'd ______" thats the dumbest shit. I'm very aware of what I am and I'm very aware of what it takes to appear that way. But he kept just going and going, and like 10 mins later I'm just sitting on a couch, looking at him like "look at you and look at me, then look in between us, you're not going to man handle 2 men that are both twice your weight, and you're not going to out run the dog, and your skin and blood conducts electricity, I have a tazer on my hip..." But just for the sake of nding it peacefully I argued it back. And I just asked what do athletics have to do with academics. He thought I said the same word twice and I was just like "are you fucking kidding me? did that really just happen" I mean it was so stupid it's funny. My security was laughing. I haven't seen them laugh ever. And I'm a pretty humorous guy. But I was just like, "look at your shirt, you went to UH, anyone with a high school diploma can go there. I go to A&M and they don't accept outside of the top 13%, unless you're married to a student or went to a really competitive high school" and he just got a lot more calm and said "So..." and I laughed and I just said, "if you think I'm stupid for going to A&M, what does that say about you? A&M is arguably the best school in Texas and if not its definitely 2nd, UH isn't even nationally ranked and their graduate schools are jokes in comparison to the top tier schools." And then he said "but what about football" and I was thinking "poor guy" but I said "just because you're good at football doesn't mean you're smart, and just the fact that you think the graduates of a better school are handicapped in comparison to the graduates of your crappy school says a lot about you thought process. and also the alumni system at A&M is amazing because of the rich traditions and rights of passage, in fact thats the only reason I came to the school, for the traditions and the alumni, also the environment is best for studying which is the only reason you go to school. Sure the football team isnt the best but the football games are still amazing for the fans because its all about being an aggie whether the team wins or loses doesnt matter. And the only reason A&M used to be considered dumb is when the school was all about football like 50 yrs ago. so you're argument is completely invalid. We're the best school in Texas or @nd at the worst. Men lie, women lie, numbers don't." Then I asked if he would give me some outro music so I could have a dramatic exit lol. Then while I ws walking away his UT wife said "he's right honey, you're school isn't really worth mentioning" lmao and the way she said it was like a mom tells her sone when he loses a football game, like in a "you'll get them next time" kind of tone. Pahahahaha. It wasn't even a good argument rhetorically, but the situation with the whole me on the couch, bodyguards and him on the otherside, that was epic lol. But I forgot to buy the chair lol so I'll go back tomorrow, hopefully it won't be raining.

But all in all today was a good day, I had lunch with a dean at Baylor Med. Dr. Phillips, I wish he was my pediatrician because he's one of the coolest people I've met. And when we went to lunch there were some med students from the UT and A&M med campuses and it was so funny because everyone from UTMB in the group went to A&M and everyone at A&MH went to UT pahahahaha it was fun talking to all of them though. Still have tons to learn.

And starbucks messed up my damn drink again... well I kind of ordered the wrong one, but they should have read my mind or something. But thats just one of those times that you have to laugh at yourself lol. I have alot of those times. They keep me young pahahahaha

I'm out.

The reason why nothing gets done

Because the right points aren't presented by the right people. Plain and simple. If people would just swallow their pride and go someone more than capable of getting the job done, the world would be alot more productive looking at it from any angle.

I remember in high school this kid was arrested because he ALLEGEDLY wrote a note threatening to kill a teacher and someone found it and told the administration. So these stupid girls made some "free jimmy" flyers and the only thing that happened is that they got detentions for something about the flyers like contraband or something. But had they just gone to the media or got a lawyer or even like a senior debater. I mean theres so many things you can do, it could have went to a script specialist to confirm whether it was or was not his handwriting. A polygraph could have been administrered. So many ways to get what you want you just have to take a step back and analyze the possibilities

I was watching the news the other day like a really long time ago and some homecoming dance was shut down because the dancing was in appropriate... so all the students did was argue. I don't know about most school systems but generally to be an administrator you need some graduate degree or a doctorate. So if you don't even have a high school diploma, what make you think you're going to win an argument with 5-7 educated people? I mean don't get me wrong, just because someone has a PhD or an MBA doesn't mean they're smart, or intellegent, it just means that they have put in work, but on the other side of that if you're not educated, chances are you aren't smart. So instead of arguing host your own dance. Invite everyone, hire a photographer, rent a ballroom. That what I would do, and while you're getting what you want, the school's losing money. that's something I would do like if you don't give me what I want, I'm going to get what I want anyways and do some form of damage in the process.

This is off topic right now, but things would go a lot smoother for a lot more people if I just got what I want, but because people think they're so much smarter and something about them is so much better whether it be their religion, or their car, or their job, I feel obligated to put them in their place and let them know what the deal is, with damages occuring in the process lol. It's all about learning and thats what I believe in lol.

But anyways, if people would just realize that their powers and knowledge sometimes will be inadequate and call on someone who is trained to deal with the issue, and the issue is appropriately diagnosed then maybe they would get somewhere. But then again, most people are stupid. Thats why not everyone is a doctor or lawyer, because not everyone is smart.

I"m sure people think I'm talking about them, like my cousins, or Hanan's family, but this goes back to the whole everyone thinking they're relevant. But just because it applies to you doesn't mean I'm talking specifically about you. But the fact that it does apply to you should mean that you can learn from it. pahahahaha all of a sudden everything is a learning process. But seriously learning is good and I'm all about it but its weird how everything can be used to learn. But whatever. That was just my take.

All of this was because I just saw something on the news about some girl at my sisters school having a jollyrancher and she got suspended for like 2 weeks. And the advocate for the girl is her mother, who works at HEB... this is where you get a lawyer and present the 8th amendment. If i were a principal, I wouldn't even consider the mom's opinion. I might take a lawyer a lot more seriously.

And thats the reason Hanan got screwed over with Mrs Sheldon, from what I remember the school even asked if Hatem was a lawyer, and as soon as he said no they pretty much tuned him out. And that's the way it works. If you don't want to be screwed over and over again, become friends with a civil or defense attorney. I mean look at me, I don't really have too many problems because 3 of the 7 people in my family have prestigious law backgrounds. Hopefully I'll be the 4th if I can find a decent MDJD program. Baylor is cool but I have to have a back up plan and at the moment I dont lol. But I don't think Baylor will be an issue. Still not a big UH Law fan, especially given the shoes I have to fill with the whole Harvard Law and Stanford Law legacies. Hmmmm, I'm going to go see if Stanford has a dual degree program for MDJD. I'll get back to you guys on that.

But in short, be friends with a good lawyer and you'll usually get what you want, in terms of the law. and there's an emphasis on good, as in someone who went to stanford or ivy league law school. or any good school like northwestern, case western, duke, or ilinois, or boston. Basically someone from up north schools, unless it emory or vanderbilt. And if they're from texas, they aren't shit unless they went to Baylor or UT; A&M, tech, and UH suck. Well not suck, but chances are that there is an abundance of lawyers that are alot better lol. Or you could just get rich and you'll usually get what you want in terms of... anything lol. Ok well I'm going to look into Stanford and get some politial science done.

Ah, the fame.

Generally, this is what I looked life when I was famous.
For those of you who don't know, at one point in time, I was the 3rd best junior in the nation, 7th in the world. I quit because I hated my dad and I thought golf was the reason, because thats the only time I was with him. Turns out it wasn't golf, but we're great now. probably just adolescent immaturity. In most of the pictures I was about 15-16 ish, went pro when I was 14, and been in the media since I was 8. enjoy.
























Dodgeball in the parent's room. Best sibling rivalry ever lol good times.








This is the sister that was hit in my prius
I mean, this is the sister thats going to buy me a fast ass German car.






RIP Pope. I think about you more than I'd like to, you were my first security guard and my best. Your legacy lives on.



Some yung joc music video. This was when I wanted to be a rapper lol. Well I still do but I don't want the fame and photo's that comes with it. golf was plenty.


I'm not going to lie, when this showed up in GolfDigest, I was pretty embarrassed.


Stupid, but very cool at the time. Just stupid now.


So I think this was the last day of spanish, sophmore year, and I just won district for brook. First autographs I ever did in Houston. All the other ones were out of state.





My first photoshop ever lol


I loved that shirt.


I thought I was the shit because I was in the yearbook as a freshman pahahaha, good picture though


I've always wanted to be on the top. Even when I was 13 lol or however old I am here


So I decided to post all of these because I found my photobucket account lol. The last time I used it was on myspace... and only god know's how long thats been. but since facebook doesn't do too much on HTML I stopped uploading pictures. I've changed alot, and I've matured alot. But this entry doesn't really have a purpose.

Well damn, I just looked at it and most of the pictures are too big. oh well, look at what you can.

mk.

Ugh. I had to pause for a minute.

Now I'm right back in it.

If you could you would get rid of me, bodyguards won't let you get to me, being a beast isn't shit to me because its in my veins and it gets to my heart

Kanye West is taking the words right out of my mind. This is the epitome of Gary. This is my life in a song.




^^^^ Coming from someone who has known me for more than 2 months.

If you can't figure out what they're saying, get the lyrics.

Thanks Celeste, for finding this, best present ever.

The last comment is priceless... reads like success

Thought I handled that fairly well... bitch. People think everything is about them, it's not like I said to myself "hey lets post a status to piss kaylan off. I don't even think about her, if it weren't for Facebook I wouldnt even know how to spell her name correctly. This is a perfect example of what I was talking about in my blog... but I wasn't being defensive and she wasn't giving me a hard time, she was just being a bitch like she always is and I just handed her shit to her.

I'm a better person because of it lmao.

I hate stupid people.

If the picture is too small, click on it and it will enlarge.

Out.